[BeyondtheRainbow]

A new start......

[~Christina]

Thanks !!! Nice room you made for us

I dont have anything new to really say. Seroquel has me in a stupor so I sleep but I sleep far too long ( and I have lifetime of insomnia. But I wanted Snowed under and my Pdoc did it !

Hugs to anyone in need

[Nammu]

Ooo new thread, number 50!

[Gabyunbound]

Yesterday was my first day working since I took time off because of my mixed episode. I was afraid to mess up in all sorts of ways, including because I've been having trouble with word-finding since being on 10mg of Zyprexa.

However, it went ok. I wasn't the best interpreter in the world, but I did an ok job and this is a huge relief.

My anxiety has overall been high lately. I have a lot of stress right now; it's a long story and too much to write about here. I can't wait til therapy tomorrow, I need a lot of help with these things. I have this deep feeling that my recovery is fragile. Part of me feels very fragile. It may not be true. I may be resilient in the face of all of this stress, and I so hope this is the case.

[Miss Laura]

I'm on my holiday currently been away since Mon. Typical Scottish weather its been raining. Im at a lodge with a hot tub currently sitting in it on my own. It was raining when we got in it so everyone came out i have been in it a while abd its sunny but cool.

Its been a long week. I feel good but really irritated and I can feel my sister and I are niggling. Its got to the stage where I am like f&&& off and leave me alone. She is constantly at me. She is really rude. I'm still raging from last Tues when my Peer Support Worker turned to me and said I have 2 options.... 1 is I ask for support or 2 is she will discharge me. I'm fuming. I don't know what support I need so I'm clueless. She has asked I email her on Monday with my answer. So I have drafted an email out and have asked people to read it. This is from the woman who said I quote "you aren't manic, your looking for symptoms, your not stable yet to have a job and you were manic the week before". So am I manic? Am I stable? What am I?

[Soupe du jour]

Almost to Barcelona via TGV. It's been a long ride, but relaxing. Hubby's sore foot has recovered a bit because of it.

I almost choked on a baguette sandwich today. I am sure some passengers were staring at me. Recovered. I did think to at least put my mask back on while in the coughing fit. I went to the train toilet to fully clear my airways.

[Moose72]

Still here at home sorting! N3 needs to get his school ID and books today. I want to do that now so it's done. My mom is coming back in 2 hours so we need to hurry.

Slept well last night. Got up at 730 when my friend called to wake me up. Had plenty of coffee.

Hugs to those in need!

[*Beth*]

Here we are at #Cincuenta! Cinquante! Petdeset! Limampu! Funfzig! Femti!

I have an eye doctor appointment today (yay! New glasses!). Unfortunately I can barely open my eyes due to the immense amount of smoke that is the consequence of this once-gorgeous state on fire.This is what it's like when the sky is amber instead of blue and ash, rather than water, rains down. AND whaddya know! The leaf blower dorks have arrived to blow massive dust clouds of dust all around my apartment building! Just what we need: more. dirty. air.

I am now convinced that I am living inside of a David Lynch film <----- THIS
-----> I'd offer hugs, but I might contaminate you.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m lying in a dark room feeling like crap. I have a lot of Covid symptoms except the fever. But I think you can have it without a fever? I’m also not coughing a ton. But I am a coughing a bit. But my throat is killing me and so is my chest and I just feel awful. Plus whenever I stand up I feel like I’m dying. This covid **** is no joke. People who think it’s a hoax can go **** themselves. I wear my mask and wash my hands and social distance and I still got something. I did get my haircut 2 weeks ago though so maybe that’s where I got it from. I got my eyes checked the next day. So yeah I let my guard down for 2 days and got something. Don’t let your guard down at all.

But just based on specific things that I’m not doing and am not in the mood for, I can tell that something is legitimately very wrong.

[Blue_Bird]

Had a busy day. Orkin inspection, then went grocery shopping, then walked to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. Then I just had a meeting with my care manager. She said I look like I've lost a lot of weight and look good so that made me feel good. It was nice to see her in person. We met outside at one of the picnic tables. I talked to her about wanting to do some kind of volunteer work so she is going to help me find some.

I got a bunch of healthy stuff at the grocery store. And they actually had hand sanitizer. I was shocked cause normally they've had zero for the past several months but they had a little display near the register that had a bunch of them, so I grabbed one while I could. The cashier was super nice.

Maybelle's vet appointment should be this month then she can come live with me finally. Excited about that.

late checking in today because I had an internet outage. (ugg they suck!)

thankfully, they arn't as bad as they used to be (where I lived before), but it still annoys me.

I also got a call from my care team today, I suppose it went well, though their was nothing really to say- the woman just wanted to reasure me " we've not forgotten you", of course, I realise that or you wouldn't have called. but yeah was still good to talk to someone, even if their was nothing really to say.

had a shopping delivery (mainly candy). looking forward to having sausages for my dinner

[pumpernickel1]

I was put back on zyprexa a few days ago. Have been eating alot but feel calm.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by pumpernickel1

I was put back on zyprexa a few days ago. Have been eating alot but feel calm.

I ate an entire lemon cake on it once...

I had a delivery today (and that's always exciting, I love the post)

it was a new jane austin mug which I won a couple weeks ago.

never read her books, so don't really know why I entered. suppose I just needed a new mug (I actually don't have many).

this one's pretty plain, it's white with the word jane austin on it. but hey I won something, I'm not complaining (I never win anything!)

not really doing much else today (hah, surprise!)

I am looking forward to my dinner though. not the food, looking forward to drinking out of my new mug

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I had a delivery today (and that's always exciting, I love the post)

it was a new jane austin mug which I won a couple weeks ago.

never read her books, so don't really know why I entered. suppose I just needed a new mug (I actually don't have many).

this one's pretty plain, it's white with the word jane austin on it. but hey I won something, I'm not complaining (I never win anything!)

not really doing much else today (hah, surprise!)

I am looking forward to my dinner though. not the food, looking forward to drinking out of my new mug

It's always nice to win something. Enjoy your mug!

I confess that I have never fully read any of Jane Austin's books, but have seen a few movies based on some. Pride and Prejudice is my absolute favorite, especially the BBC television version. I really like such stories and am deep down a romantic. I also think that story's main character, Elizabeth Bennett, is a wonderful woman. I don't know if you like romances. Or do you? I only ask based on a response I once read of yours.

I had to turn my fan on today because of the heat outside, it realyl works, too: I underestimate the power of the fan.. it's actually really powerful (mine
is, and I've had it over 10 years, still going strong!)
nada in the skedule. absolute nada

(I am running out of stuff to put in these type of threads, my life is so dull!)

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I had to turn my fan on today because of the heat outside, it realyl works, too: I underestimate the power of the fan.. it's actually really powerful (mine
is, and I've had it over 10 years, still going strong!)
nada in the schedule. absolute nada

(I am running out of stuff to put in these type of threads, my life is so dull!)

How about those new pain approaches you may be ecploring...

[SleeplessinthePNW]

Hi y’all this us my first time on any peer support group site. It’s really early where I am and I can’t get back to sleep. I can get to sleep fine but staying asleep is hard once my mind spins up. Thought?
I’ve also been struggling with the fear of losing control and having another manic episode. Though I’m sure it wont look the same as it did before. I had two major episodes in three years when I was 30. I fought the diagnosis because I already knew a lot about it at the time. The second episode rife with religious delusions lead to me losing my religion. The first episode led to bankruptcy.
The stakes are higher now I'm married and we are fairly well set up. The thought of losing control to that extent again terrifies me. Can anyone relate?
Thanks

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by SleeplessinthePNW

Hi y’all this us my first time on any peer support group site. It’s really early where I am and I can’t get back to sleep. I can get to sleep fine but staying asleep is hard once my mind spins up. Thought?
I’ve also been struggling with the fear of losing control and having another manic episode. Though I’m sure it wont look the same as it did before. I had two major episodes in three years when I was 30. I fought the diagnosis because I already knew a lot about it at the time. The second episode rife with religious delusions lead to me losing my religion. The first episode led to bankruptcy.
The stakes are higher now I'm married and we are fairly well set up. The thought of losing control to that extent again terrifies me. Can anyone relate?
Thanks

Hello, PNW, welcome!
@SleeplessinthePNW
I can relate in that when I was in the episode which resulted in my diagnosis we lost the house we were buying. Though my wife and I don't talk about it, it remains a thorn in my side.

Keep in contact with your care team and with us here and we will all do our best to support you and prevent you losing control to that extent again.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by SleeplessinthePNW

Hi y’all this us my first time on any peer support group site. It’s really early where I am and I can’t get back to sleep. I can get to sleep fine but staying asleep is hard once my mind spins up. Thought?
I’ve also been struggling with the fear of losing control and having another manic episode. Though I’m sure it wont look the same as it did before. I had two major episodes in three years when I was 30. I fought the diagnosis because I already knew a lot about it at the time. The second episode rife with religious delusions lead to me losing my religion. The first episode led to bankruptcy.
The stakes are higher now I'm married and we are fairly well set up. The thought of losing control to that extent again terrifies me. Can anyone relate?
Thanks

Welcome to the group, Sleepless! What kind of mental health treatment are you in?