How do you accept it?

Miss Laura · Nov 25, 2020, 05:23 AM

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Originally Posted by NaoSky

I loved the move Braveheart!! That’s so awesome!!

How’s the depot injection working? I feel like meds don’t do anything for me, but I’ve only been taking them for about 5 months. My mom always got off of them after she tried taking them. She’s cycled several times but only hospitalized once. She’s learned to tone it down when she’s manic so it’s hard to tell sometimes. We just suspect when she starts spending a lot of money. She goes through bad depressions but mange’s to get out of them over time. She’s actually in one right now. She thinks she went through the mania right before I did. So we are both going through this depression together. She also watches my daughter while I work. My little one is the best medicine for both of us.

Yes I’m bipolar 1... it’s crazy how it can be different for everyone. I don’t know where my journey will be but I’m glad I found this forum. It’s good to find people who understand what it’s like.

Im doing ok... hopefully one day I can say I’m great... but my daughter is my light and she helps me feel better than just ok when she’s near me.

Thank you. It’s been nice so far and grateful for all of the responses I get!

Lol Braveheart is great but full of inaccuracies unfortunately. I prefer not to think of them and just watch until my heart is content. I recite bits of it on days like St. Andrews Day, Burn's Night etc whenever being Scottish is celebrated much to the annoyance of my family

I feel no different being on the injection tbh. Is it even working lol?? I know it takes time. But jeez. They are now saying I MUST go back on Depakote as in the words of my Psychiatrist "Your condition means you will always need meds and in fact a mood stabiliser" yay!!! Lucky me? I said I would think about it as I'm not happy about it.

NaoSky · Nov 25, 2020, 09:29 AM

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Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Lol Braveheart is great but full of inaccuracies unfortunately. I prefer not to think of them and just watch until my heart is content. I recite bits of it on days like St. Andrews Day, Burn's Night etc whenever being Scottish is celebrated much to the annoyance of my family

I feel no different being on the injection tbh. Is it even working lol?? I know it takes time. But jeez. They are now saying I MUST go back on Depakote as in the words of my Psychiatrist "Your condition means you will always need meds and in fact a mood stabiliser" yay!!! Lucky me? I said I would think about it as I'm not happy about it.

I bet it is, but ya I love that movie! I remember watching it in the theatre when it first came out and loved it! Doesn’t Mel Gibson have bipolar too?

Ya I wish meds worked faster, maybe we would trust them more. My mom is about 62 with bipolar and doesn’t take meds. She’s been hospitalized once when she was in her 30s. She can go years without an episode, and when she does have one the worst she gets is irritable and spends a lot of money on everyone. But she prefers to just go through that than be on medicine. I don’t know. I used to try to make her take them but we all just gave up. She went through hypomania right before I did, but I didn’t even realize that’s what it was because her while life she’s denied having bipolar... even when I was going through the mania she told me she did not have it and nether did I. But she finally believes she does now that I’m going through this depression and she’s also stuck in the depression as well. I tried to tell her to get on meds but she said they don’t help her. And here I am taking them and don’t feel like I’ve improved.... reading through everyone’s experiences too it sounds like it’s so hard to find the right cocktail. Well I do hope something works for you!!!! I’m not sure what I’m going to do yet. I don’t want to take Latuda which is what they are trying to get me to take... another dr tried to put me on vraylar but I wasn’t sure about that one either. I’m just not good with decisions right now!!

*Beth* · Nov 25, 2020, 02:12 PM

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Originally Posted by NaoSky

That’s cool that you guys have decided on the arrangement yet y’all are still together. I don’t think my husband would go for the separate living arrangements and even if he did we would have to trade our child back and forth and that’s what I want to avoid. I’m sacrificing my need to live apart so that I can have my daughter everyday. I had originally filed for divorce during my mania and I was totally fine with raising our daughter separately and doing the whole trading back and forth with her BUT when the depression hit, I just couldn’t do it anymore. I ended the divorce and convinced my husband that I was still in love with him and it was the mania that made me do it. But honestly I don’t know!! I have no idea if I would have left him eventually... I don’t know how much I really love him, especially during this depression I don’t have a lot of feelings, only for my baby... I love her so much. She’s my heart and I can’t be away from her for very long. I care about my husband, but he’s just not affectionate with me... he says he loves me, but it’s not the love I would really want to have.... and now with this illness I’m sure many people would have a hard time accepting me. I’d probably end up single for the rest of my life if I don’t stay with him. Not that it’s a bad thing, but not something I ever wanted. I’m just so confused about our relationship or where it’s headed.... so I keep the house just in case. He thinks I love “stuff” more than I love him because I’m holding onto it.... but I don’t know what to do with everything should I sell the house and right now I struggle just to go to the grocery store!! So I keep putting off making a decision. Decisions are so hard right now!!!

I understand so well. Had I been separated from my 2 children when they were young I might as well have lived in a psych hospital, I would have been completely broken.

It sounds cliche, but have the 2 of you tried couples counseling? It seems so important, just for the sake of raising your little one.

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