Questions Bipolar Version #8

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My first semester of grad school was also really hard but I don't think quite as hard at that semester in undergrad. I'm going back and forth.....

What is the hardest class you ever took?

Fabrics. It was required for my degree. It was held in an auditorium whereas all my other classes were held in a classroom or art space. It was huge. There was no place to sit where I could read lips, down front was to low and I couldn’t read lips from that angle, and a level place was to far away from their faces. It was taught by two ancient ladies. I didn’t find out till half way though that there was a lab too! I tried talking to them, but they didn’t get it. I never thought to go to an advisor.

We’re you ever in a special needs place and it never closed your mind to speak up?

I'm sorry, Nammu. I don't fully understand what you're asking. Can you clarify?

Sorry for not being clear. Um ever needed accommodation for a special need?. ( like for me I need masks removed to read lips) but also an accommodation for bipolar or some other special need but you never thought it something that you could get so never asked?

That's what I thought you meant, but wasn't 100% sure. I'm glad buddha1too asked. In response, I did get various accommodations at my last job, for my bipolar disorder. Actually, my husband was the one that initially asked for them for me. The initial ones included having an office space with a window and having the space out of the main walking drag. They were also flexible about me adjusting my arrival/departure times, as long as I got the full day's hours in. Later down the line, I was allowed to work from home for two or three of the days of the five day work week. That was about 10 years ago, when working from home like that was not that common. Also, there were a couple tasks of my job that I needed to give up, so they transferred them to a subordinate. Sadly, my illness continued to worsen again, so I had to go out on permanent disability from that job. I was eventually terminated, but only after three and a half years of being in and out of work because of bipolar disorder.

What is something someone said or did that was especially helpful in terms of understanding of your bipolar disorder? Could be anyone, but I'm mostly thinking of people other than your psychiatrist or therapist.

I had a girlfriend in college who in our beginning stages asked me "so...do you have bipolar or schizoaffective?" Which surprised me because I thought my symptoms were well hidden and also who tf knows what schizoaffective disorder (later found out she had BPD so did a lot of research in similar diagnoses). She explained all the symptoms she saw (weird texts at weird hours, days of hypersexuality followed by not even wanting to think about sex, being really loud and talkative (obnoxiously so, but she didn't say that) for periods, responding to noises she couldn't hear, etc) and that conversation was really helpful because I had just barely been diagnosed at the time.

How did you react when you were first diagnosed?

I was angry as hell. It was a secondary diagnosis to ptsd, bipolar 2. I’m still angry about it however I can see it’s still affecting me today.

Do you think you can ever get over bipolar ?

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Did you block me? I thought this was a question and answer ? Like tag style?

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Originally Posted by leomama Did you block me? I thought this was a question and answer ? Like tag style? Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

No, of course I didn't block you. I accidentally posted on the wrong thread.

So your reply to sapient was to me?

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Originally Posted by leomama So your reply to sapient was to me? Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

My reply was to Sapien. I was thinking I was on the check-in thread. I made a mistake.

I'm interpreting your question as whether or not I've come to peace with my bipolar disorder? If I'm right, then pretty much, yes. Perhaps about five or six years ago, but it certainly required a lot of steps to get where I am. Of course I don't just accept being ill. Right now I'm not ill, and will never let the disorder take me. I also know that I could definitely have additional bad episodes in the future. No denial about that possibility.

What is one of the nicest things anyone has done for you?

My friend threw a surprise birthday party.my kitten cuddled with me . Do you share a lot of personal private informations with friends then regret it?

I don’t much talk about myself. So no I don’t. Some people are easier to talk to than others. I talked to an aunt the other day. We talk about all kinds of stuff for two hours and it was like no time had passed yet neither of us talked about ourselves. We talked books mostly, and religion, politics and media.

What do you you to pass the time?

listen to music, watch tv, surf the internet, the usual simple things lol.

worst thing about where you currently live?

The area is quite nice. The only negative is that it is not as close to family and friends as we like. We thought we'd see one friend much more, but he's been ill and in the US. That, and the pandemic, make us feel a bit isolated.

Are you more a city or country person? And why?

I was raised in the very heart of Motown, & now live in a good sized city. I can't even imagine living in the country. When one lives in the city there's the potential to do so many things...you'll note I wrote "potential." It's not that my partner & I actually "do" that much on a regular basis, but we're secure in the knowledge that we "could" if we so desired. I like the fact that we have a minor league baseball team here in town, & that I'm a little short of a two hour drive from a MLB team's stadium (I'm going to a game on Sunday!). I also live in the city where my Big Ten alma mater is located, so there are many college sporting events, as well.

Which do you prefer, freshwater fun, or ocean adventures? Describe why.

Fresh water lakes. I practically grew up on a lake. My parents bought a cabin when I was 9 or 10 and after that mum and I practically lived up there the whole summer. Dad would join us on his weekends. Various cousins and their families would join us for a week or two. We had tons of fun. Canoeing, row boats and with adults the big boats. But I’ve only seen the ocean twice. Without being able to go in the water. The idea of jelly fish freaks me out yet I shared a lake that had leeches!

What would constitute a perfect day for you?

hmm: I would say, a good sleep, a good meal, no pain, no thoughts of sui, no issues with my incontinence, actually getting stuff done (and not just sitting their), and no thoughts of abuse or flashbacks

do you worry about the future?. if so, what do you worry about

I'm a worried by nature. I'm worried about the future because I'm getting ready to leave an emotionally abusive ex-husband (I live with him) and I'm moving 18 hours south. It's a lot of big changes.

What's the last song you listened to?

all of me by john legend because it is so good

how do you feel when other people try to tell you how to live your life?. do you ignore their comments?, or say something like, well, I'll bear that in mind, or what do you do

I tend to go on the offensive. I'll give them multiple reasons why that wouldn't work, even if I think it's a good idea I have to play Devil's Advocate.

What's the perfect time to wake up?

I really don't know. I am so used to being up at all times of the day or night, I've not really thought about it

I guess just when ever you're ready?. lol I have no idea

question: how many people do you have that truly understand you? (including therapists and stuff)

Unfortunately, no one really understands me.

What is something you never learned to do but wish you had?