[Victoria'smom]

They say it's not true but I feel that they're lying. I don't know why they would lie and be so cruel. I have new T in 2 hrs and I don't want her to hate me or lie to me. We can't start a relationship with hate and lies. My anxiety is through the roof, I'm sad everyone hates me. AND I don't know how to scale anything. 1-10 how are you getting along with others GREAT I just think they all hate me and I'm trying to make up for whatever the **** I did. I don't know why I'm writing this. H is in a no win situation. Which lends the idea this may be psychosis. I don't want to talk to anyone because if I say the wrong thing they may hate me more.

[*Beth*]

Mm, you've been here before...I hope you are seriously considering your belief as a delusion. I'm sorry, I don't mean to sound harsh. I just feel really bad to find out that you're suffering because of a trick your brain is playing on you.

[Victoria'smom]

Five min....

[Bipolarchic14]

I would consider the facts. Do you have facts to go with the negative thinking? Can you think of some situations that show how much they love you. In regards to seeing a new therapist, good luck. That can be very nerve racking. Especially when they give homework to start working on anxieties. 😱

[Bipolarchic14]

P.s. I don’t hate you. I am grateful for the support you and the other members provide.

[Moose72]

I don't hate you! I think you may be over thinking this. It will turn out just fine I bet! Don't borrow trouble. My dad used to tell me that I put all my problems in the corner and then jump in! Don't follow my lead. I hope you feel better soon.

[Victoria'smom]

So it went okay. She wants me to chart my mood, and journal. She wants a med check this week and wants me to tract how often I want to harm my self. I didn't spring the Eating Disorder on her yet. I figure put one fire out before another.

She didn't really say anything about me thinking everyone hating me. She's not fond of the fact I only trust my husband and you guys and sometimes not my husband. She's not fond of the fact that I don't even trust myself. I'm nauseas, want SH and cry.

Thank-you for not hating me!!! I really didn't want to say anything because what if it's true?

[Victoria'smom]

Can you think of some situations that show how much they love you. It's hard not to think of those things as just mocking me.

[Nammu]

This is where the DBT comes in handy.

[MickeyCheeky]

i don't hate you of course and i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters. Do you think there is any reason specifically of why other people should hate you? Try to think rationally about it and see if anything comes up. If you can't think of solid reasons perhaps it is mostly your impression? Just some food for thoughts. New therapist can bring lots of stress. Happy that it went well. If the people near you are treating you with care and repsect i'd say that is a sign that they do still care about you at least in my opinion. Sending many Safe, Warm hugs to BOTH you, @Miguel'smom, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

[*Beth*]

All I can say, Mm is that in NO way do I hate you. Please believe me...your brain is being tricky with you

[Victoria'smom]

Thank-you guys, I'm trying to remember you've never lied to me. I'm not as upset about it today. I'm more it is what it is. I'm to tired to care about the outcome. I just have to wait to see what pdoc says.

[bizi]

I don't hate you!
This is a false belief which is part of a delusion. And part psychosis.
journal as she suggested. I will follow along.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[Victoria'smom]

So I talked to pdoc. He seems unconcerned. He put me back on my AD and told me "lets not run out again." If I don't feel better in 3 months then we will up the AD but I have to take it consistently for the 3 months. Because I think it's anxiety based. If anything my therapist can make an emergency appointment and I'm suppose to see her weekly. So I guess we'll see. I don't think I get my point across well but it is what it is.

[Victoria'smom]

So I went to bed last night thinking Everyone wanted me dead. So I took my first AD today. My head's spinning, obviously this is getting worse but next week I get my shot and we'll see it that helps. I have my headphones on tonight.

[Victoria'smom]

My nephew kind of got through to me. Nights are still pretty bad, same with mornings but 12-9 I'm comfortable with.

[*Beth*]

That is wonderful! A step in the best direction.