[Mountaindewed]

Like completely. I was reading all day and distracting myself. Then I went to bed and I was in bed alone with my thoughts and everything just hit me. My therapist. The new one. The move. I got really angry at my mom and I sent a ton of angry texts. Then I threw a glass at the wall which didn’t break. I finally took 2mil of Xanax and an 80 mil of Geodon and fell asleep.

My mom and I are being ok with each other today. I apologized

But I have never had stuff just hit me that hard all of a sudden where I ended up losing it.

[Soupe du jour]

Have you yet met your new therapist? Either way, I hope you give her a fair shake. Sometimes it takes a few sessions to know how you'll feel for sure.

[wolftrap]

Sorry to hear that Mtn. I hope you are doing better today.

this happens to all of us at some point.

last time it happened to me I threatened to knock someone out over a missing toothbrush. I doubt I will, mainly because the person in question is a ****ing ***** and she really isn't worth my time, and, more importantly, it is only a toothbrush. she's like yeah yeah, I bet you will.

I don't have a mother to get angry at, but I keep old email addresses to **** off the person when I'm frustrated

when I used to have a friend laura, she'd say to me you can bash me and scream at me all you like. I don't mind. her email address used to be flooded. I lost that one anyway, after she told me people believing in god are freaks, I deleted her from my life

she was good with my bipolar though. she used to know I got mannic when ever I saw a ball and would prevent me from buying one or try too.. she'd be like but if you see that ball you know exactly what's going to happen.

and she was great with me when I went through a phase of believing the FBI were watching me.