Why do I still do this?

Why don't I learn from my mistakes? Is it possible to learn from mistakes?

The guy I love got back in touch things have been going so well between us. Then he gas refused to video call or phone call. Remember I have no idea what he looks or sounds like. He told me at 7pm we could talk on the phone at 8:30pm so I texted him to confirm it as he said this the other night too and cancelled my call.

He refused to take my call says he is shy etc complete and utter BS. I mean I got dressed up for him he wanted me in sexy lingerie which I bought for him last week.

I'm such a loser

I don't understand why you are calling yourself a loser? I think his behavior is selfish.

I can't get anything right, I'm a screw up. I want to just be normal as much as I can without being so attached to people. I feel the racing thoughts are crawling out if my head when talking to him I know iys not good but it feels soooo good talking to him. I feel like a broken record. I feel so heart broken I've been crying over him

Don't let someone you have never met or talked to on the phone get you down. I know that is easy for me to say, but just love yourself and everything will end up fine. I just know it! Many hugs to you!

I don't think you're a screw up for hooking up with a guy online. It's a pretty regular thing to do, and people online affect us just as IRL people do, after all.

Sounds like the bloke is just a wanker! Don't let yourself get sucked in so easily!

^^^^ This ^^^^

You're not a loser. I'm going through a similar situation. I let myself get wrapped up in a guy that is unavailable to me like I would like him to be. But this happened so many times, that I feel like it gets easier with time to just let them go. I feel like I'm worthless and unlovable and will remain single forever. So I understand the pain you're going thru right now. But we'll get thru this in time.