[Scooter9]

I stopped my meds on Saturday due to the stomach pain I had.

I contacted my pdoc but she's away until next week.

No change in terms of mood so far but I don't think anything will happen for at least 1-2 weeks since I have been on those same meds for several years.

I feel I have to do this because the stomach pain is so bad when it happens. I can't do anything at all when it's there and it lasts for 6 hours.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

I stopped my meds on Saturday due to the stomach pain I had.

I contacted my pdoc but she's away until next week.

No change in terms of mood so far but I don't think anything will happen for at least 1-2 weeks since I have been on those same meds for several years.

I feel I have to do this because the stomach pain is so bad when it happens. I can't do anything at all when it's there and it lasts for 6 hours.

I take it the stomach pain is gone now since you stopped the meds? It may just be one of the meds causing the pain, but you wouldn't know that unless you gradually removed each med and kept the others on board.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I spent most of the day researching stuff for our trip, and doing chores (i.e. laundry) to prepare. I've even started gathering stuff to pack. Tomorrow I want to spend a good amount of time sprucing myself up, so I don't look like a frump. I even plan on wearing two dresses during the trip. One, a bit dressy. Truth is, we haven't been out to anywhere really nice in a long time, because of the pandemic. I guess not since Christmas (and maybe New Years), when we were traveling on a southern US road trip. The nice Christmas dinner was in Charleston, South Carolina. I confess to forgetting where we were on New Years. That must sound strange, but that trip was so overwhelming that some is a blur.

The only time I was in Vienna was when my chamber choir went there for a world wide competition of kids 18 and under. We won best in our class- small mixed ensemble- and Pride of Vienna- best in all the classes! I remember our hotel and the streets. And the other choir that was there from the U.S. And then three years later (after I'd graduated) the choir, including my sister again, went again and won AGAIN! I wasn't a part of that but I remember the first time and it was a happy day when we won. I wonder if they still do that competition?

[Mountaindewed]

I just applied to my old job (different location) and the local library. So I’ll see what happens. And if those don’t work out then I’ll wait until after my surgery to figure out something else. But I hope I didn’t just screw myself out of 2 very good jobs that may not hire me because of the time I have to take off.

The library job was posted 30 days ago. Have they filled it and not updated or have they just not found anyone to work?

[Moose72]

In addition to having to go to the pharmacy at some point, I am going to bring my car over to Kevin's place so he can check it out. I need that fixed before N3 can have his driving test this week!

Now that I'm sitting in the a/c and feeling good, I want to go back to bed but I have my contacts in and I'm waiting to hear about my script and I have to take my car over. Besides- I got up not even 2 hours ago! How lazy am I? Could it be the doubled Seroquel even after all these hours AND having slept? Nah....???

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by Moose72

The only time I was in Vienna was when my chamber choir went there for a world wide competition of kids 18 and under. We won best in our class- small mixed ensemble- and Pride of Vienna- best in all the classes! I remember our hotel and the streets. And the other choir that was there from the U.S. And then three years later (after I'd graduated) the choir, including my sister again, went again and won AGAIN! I wasn't a part of that but I remember the first time and it was a happy day when we won. I wonder if they still do that competition?

Moose, thanks for sharing about that lovely memory! And how great you were the winning choir! I did a brief google and found the following: Summa Cum Laude International Youth Music Festival Vienna 2020 | European Choral Association Does this look like what you attended? It appears that July 2020 was the most recent one. I didn't see any taking place this year. If it didn't, I can only assume because of covid.

I think that July 2020 things were doing quite well in Central Europe, covid-wise. Only with the Delta variant did things worsen for a while, again. Right now, there are very few covid cases in my neck of the woods. I just looked and there are 553 new cases in Austria. Only 183 new cases in Czech Republic.While New Jersey, on the other hand, has 1,169. I won't even quote the numbers in Florida and other states in that region. The differences? Strict mask requirements, smaller population densities, and generally good vaccination rates, though the latter could still improve.

[wildflowerchild25]

I am feeling depressed today, not really any reason behind it. I had a bit of a tumultuous weekend but only in my mind. Trouble with a trigger I didn’t see coming, and then RS was just not himself on Saturday. Very up and down and he didn’t know why he felt so upset. I of course blamed myself but I did some fact checking to calm myself. He went fishing on Sunday as was in a good mood again when he came back.

I’m having bad body image problems lately. I don’t even like putting on my gym clothes because the shorts are so tight. So I haven’t gone to the gym in a week which isn’t good for my self esteem either so yeah it’s a whole cycle.

I’ve been so tired from this damn seroquel. It’s exactly the same as it was five years ago. I struggle waking up and feel out of it until about noonish. I’m worried about going back to work. But I have no alternative to this med. it’s legit the ONLY one that works right now. I can’t start tinkering again now with the new school year starting in three weeks.

I guess I’m just frustrated overall.

[Moose72]

Wfc, I hear you about the Seroquel. My pdoc just doubled my dose and today I didn't wake up until almost 1! This won't do! I still haven't gotten my new script for it but I have a few days of leftover Seroquel from when I was in the hospital that adds up to 300.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Moose, thanks for sharing about that lovely memory! And how great you were the winning choir! I did a brief google and found the following: Summa Cum Laude International Youth Music Festival Vienna 2020 | European Choral Association Does this look like what you attended? It appears that July 2020 was the most recent one. I didn't see any taking place this year. If it didn't, I can only assume because of covid.

I think that July 2020 things were doing quite well in Central Europe, covid-wise. Only with the Delta variant did things worsen for a while, again. Right now, there are very few covid cases in my neck of the woods. I just looked and there are 553 new cases in Austria. Only 183 new cases in Czech Republic.While New Jersey, on the other hand, has 1,169. I won't even quote the numbers in Florida and other states in that region. The differences? Strict mask requirements, smaller population densities, and generally good vaccination rates, though the latter could still improve.

Thanks for that. I don't see anything mentioned about "The Pride of Vienna" in there though. When I look up "pride of Vienna" I get LGBTQ+ parade articles and sites out of Vienna.

[Mountaindewed]

I made a dumb decision to take all my night meds, including 180 mil of Geodon, and 20 mil of melatonin in the middle of the afternoon. My anxiety was really bad. So now I’m trying to stay awake even though I’m really struggling with keeping my eyes open

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I made a dumb decision to take all my night meds, including 180 mil of Geodon, and 20 mil of melatonin in the middle of the afternoon. My anxiety was really bad. So now I’m trying to stay awake even though I’m really struggling with keeping my eyes open

What time is it where you are? Maybe you can just go to sleep early?

[Moose72]

Welp, no meds today. Plus, I got my paperwork for section 8 days ago when I was in the hospital and I opened it and totally FORGOT that it needs signed and faxed back! So I email the lady in charge telling her that I was in the hospital when the paperwork arrived and that I was faxing it in today and she says "No worries. Feel better!" I guess it helps to have a relationship with your section 8 case worker! I was so worried because the paperwork says "No later than X".

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

@BethRags:

Yeah, Neil sure understands.

Have you listened to the album Tonight's the Night? Not one of his well-known albums, but may be his best. There's also a wikipedia entry that tells the story of the album.


I feel the exhibit will be joyful, not overwhelming. I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow, if i feel it was worth the money. My ticket was $35CDN. You only have an hour because of COVID.

How was it?

I feel slightly better after lying down. I sure can't rest like i used to, for hours. I'm too restless. I made the Summer's first iced coffee. It was good. I put down my blackout curtain and shut the world out.

If i crash, it'll still be okay because i lasted five weeks longer into the Summer than i ever have before. I'll just have to be more purposeful about arranging my social life. I wish someone would take the initiative with me, but i guess three have lately, so it's not like i'm NEVER the one invited out. The inability to plan really ruins a vigorous social life. I've been asked to two events and had to say 'maybe' because i never know where i'll be with my health.

It's occurred to me that the improvement in my health might be related to COVID anxieties being over, in which case it'll be temporary. I'll just have to see. No one has a crystal ball.

My birthday is coming up on the 21st and it's a big one, 55, i finally qualify for a vibrant seniors center and will get to meet a whole bunch of new people and have somewhere to go during the daytime. I'll also get the seniors discount!!! I doubt i'll do anything to celebrate my actual birth day and it's doubtful anyone else will so i'm kind of dreading the day itself.

I'm sorry your dreading your birthday. It sounds like being 55 will open new doors for you. When I dread my birthday I just focus on the day after, when I have the benefit of my new age without the pressure of the actual birthday.

Also discouraged because it was Louise's birthday today (my closest neighbor) and she'd turned down my offer of a celebration a couple weeks ago saying she "doesn't celebrate her birthday," but i saw her late afternoon in party gear so she definitely celebrated her birthday, just not with me. Feel rejected.

You know...I would feel hurt, too! Do you think you'll say anything to her?

So that are my key food binge triggers:

1. loneliness
2. rejection
3. boredom

They're all mixed together because if i try and solve the loneliness and boredom by socializing i risk rejection.

Aah, it's all a ball of wax.

I'm sorry, Jane I give you credit for getting out there and meeting people, and for socializing. I'm such a hermit.

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[Scooter9]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I take it the stomach pain is gone now since you stopped the meds? It may just be one of the meds causing the pain, but you wouldn't know that unless you gradually removed each med and kept the others on board.

Yeah the pain is gone now. It lasted 6 hours Friday night. It was identical to the pain I had from the time I had the reaction to Lamictal.

Both of my meds list severe stomach pain as a rare side effect.

I know I'm taking a chance stopping my meds but the pain was so bad and I would rather not have to go through that again. I lived with that pain for 2 years and want to leave it in the past.

[bizi]

Just wanted to pop in and say that I am sorry for our ups and downs with bipolar. It sounds like suffering to me.
I run mostly high rather than low.
Although, I think I fail to recognize the depression.
I am fortunate in that regards.
I guess.
Hugs to those who need them.
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[FooZe]

The new thread is here: Bipolar check in thread #58