Bipolar check-in #64

I did find a pair of acceptable pants ! I have lost weight so They fit again so thankful ! Shoes… oooaf ! I do have a pair that should go ok. They are a lightest brown wedge that I think I can still walk in lol ever since I have started falling often I’ve had trouble wearing anything with a heel. I’ll try them out before then.

Yes a Mennonite wedding ! I’m not sure if it’s something like ours. I’m very curious tho lol

Hope your having a nice day hun! Hugs

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I'm having a hard time this afternoon. It feels more mental health today. I've been thinking about this incident that happened when I was 14 and its been bugging me and also I'm worried I'm going to be sent IP because of my eating habits which seem to be getting worse. I just had a meltdown because my mom couldn't gurantee me dinner would be ready on time. We discussed this for a few days how she always plans holiday dinners being ready at a certain time and how they never are. They are always a couple hours later then planned. She promised this time dinner would be ready early. So when I asked again she said "around" and I kinda freaked out because I knew this would happen. But I guess my therapist would say if I know its going to happen because it always does and its never any different I just need to accept it and not get upset over it. Or something along that. But yeah now I kinda understand how the whole reassurance thing is not very good since it can sometimes lead to false promises. But this eating issue combined with OCD is not very good and I hope my therapist can help me. It does seem to be more of an anxiety issue then a physical issue. At least today.

I’ve hit a bit of Verbal constipation as I call the inability to really respond in a way that would make sense to you all.

I hope everyone is enjoying their Easter in whatever way they celebrate

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Originally Posted by ~Christina I did find a pair of acceptable pants ! I have lost weight so They fit again so thankful ! Shoes… oooaf ! I do have a pair that should go ok. They are a lightest brown wedge that I think I can still walk in lol ever since I have started falling often I’ve had trouble wearing anything with a heel. I’ll try them out before then. Yes a Mennonite wedding ! I’m not sure if it’s something like ours. I’m very curious tho lol Hope your having a nice day hun! Hugs Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Oh, good - the shoes sound really cute. Wedges are so in style now. Yeah, you'll have to let us know what a Mennonite wedding is like!

Happy Easter, sweetpea

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25 @BethRags Ah! Progressive muscle relaxation! Forgot all about that one! That might help. I’ve just been staying up too late and I don’t like it. It messes with my mood.

I so hope you'll find it helpful. I first learned PMR in a birthing class when I was pregnant with my first child. Wow, it felt so good.

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed I'm not doing too bad today mentally or physically. I took my meds as scheduled which meant a geodon in the AM. That was at 2 and then I got back to sleep until right before 6. I ate a couple crackers with the geodon which may have helped. I don't normally eat with it even though I know thats a med you need to eat with. Around 8 I ate a jelly donut and a small matcha iced latte without any issue. My mom is at church right now with my sister and her family and then theres an egg hunt at the church and then later they will come over for dinner. Right now I'm just watching hulu in the family room and enjoying the peace and quite before things get chaotic.

I love egg hunts. I miss them from when my kids were little. I hope you have a super Easter, Md!

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird My sister is unable to keep her 13 year old cat Maybelle anymore, so I decided to take her to live with me. So Miss Mustachio (my 6 month old cat) is getting a big sister soon! she is a beautiful sweet tortie cat. My sister was looking for a home for her and I couldn't let her get taken by anyone else, I wanted her to stay within the family if possible so I'm getting her, and I am very excited, here's a pic of her Happy Easter

How wonderful of you to adopt Maybelle. She and Miss M. will be happy to have each other.

It could have been better. I wish whatever it is that I have going on would get figured out. My first doctors appointment is tommrow. So I'll see if the high hematricrit went up at all. I have a feeling it did. Then I have another one with my primary on Tuesday and therapy. Hopefully I get stuff figured out. I hate those commercials where they are like "my doctor told me I was ok. But I knew I was dying." Because I think I may just be super anxious and I plan on telling my primary that but I don't want him to downplay my symptoms either in case there is something wrong. Its just a weird position to be in right now.

Happy Easter!

I had the best surprise yesterday - my sister and brother-in-law stopped by for a visit. It was a complete surprise and I was over the moon! Oh, my gosh, my sister and I were holding onto each other and crying. We hadn't seen each other in 3 years. The 3 of us had a wonderful conversation for a few hours. My sister had a mild stroke last summer and I really noticed in person how she's changed. She's such a bright, intelligent person. I'm working through grief, it's hard. She has trouble finding words and her short-term memory is messed up. But she looked lovely, and it's always great to see my BIL. They've been married for 54 years.

The day is just gorgeous today. Sunny and bright, but a pleasant breeze. And I have new curtains coming today! I had soft grey ones, a peaceful color, but they no longer match the colors I'm doing in my bedroom. So the new curtains will be an ivory color.

I took 25mg of Seroquel at 11 last night and ended up staying awake until 3 a.m. I just had no feeling to go to bed. Now I feel all achy and tired. I'm lost on what to do about my sleep anymore.

**~*May you see a magical Easter bunny hopping along today!~**~

Well Easter 🐣 is all done for the year. Got up this morning showered and made the green bean casserole. Wrapped it up in blankets to keep warm. Was a good uneventful dinner and then an egg hunt for the kids. They really enjoyed that. My daughter and her family couldn’t make it so there was just 4 kids.

Worried about mum though. She didn’t get up until just before we left and on coming back she immediately put her Pjs back on and is talking about going to bed. She seems to be having more and more bad days. She’s just so tired.

Oh, Beth I’m sorry you didn’t sleep either. But I’m overjoyed you got a visit with your sister, how nice. We should switch curtains. The ones in the bedroom are ivory lace but don’t go to well with the bohemian comforter my daughter bought me. Grey would work nicely tho. Then I’d have to paint the whole room though, maybe a light grey?

Beth sorry you didn't sleep well again.

I've done nothing today except talk with N 3 on the phone and make the onion, zucchini and summer squash dish again. It's cooking right now. It's very easy to make but it's a waiting game. You can't rush it! I've sauted the onion and now have put the zucchini and squash in with some water. It smells delicious!

All I've had today is a bagel with cream cheese and a bag of chips. It will be nice to eat hot food.

I'm kind of bummed that I didn't get to do anything for Easter. I went to Starbucks and met a friend but that isn't what I'm craving in terms of social interaction. I want someone to come over and eat with me.

You have been clearly struggling a great deal, whatever2013. Please do reach out to your doctor for more help. You seem to me among the people I've met here that can shine a most brilliant light. A person I imagine dancing a lovely figurative dance for many to enjoy. Yes, depression can ground that brilliancy, but it can/does return.

My husband, sister, and I had a nice visit with Dad. I was quite pleased to see Dad's physical and cognitive capabilities notably improved. I imagine his mood and eyesight improvement also played parts. What a difference such things can make. Truly!

My poor brother has a preliminary diagnosis of pancreatitis. They still need to run more tests, though. He said he expects to be in the hospital for at least another few days. He sort of sounded a little scared. My sister senses that, too. He acted the same a while back when he was hospitalized with heart issues. Of course it must be scary, but it still seems strange from a man who always acted tougher than life. How an illness weakens the spirit! Truth is, he's very lonely in life. That makes the fear worse, I'm sure. Loneliness itself can be a major risk factor for illness. I told him that Hubby and I would visit him in the hospital tomorrow. I'll try to reassure him the best I can. Frankly, I think my brother could greatly benefit from a therapist. Someone to help guide him beyond the limited existence he's set himself up into.

Thanks for the kind words @Soupe du jour, especially while you are on holiday and dealing with so much already. Also thanks to @BethRags and @wildflowerchild25 for the concern. I'll be busy tomorrow dealing with electricians here to do an upgrade so i emailed in to my doctor asking for some Wellbutrin as this is what we used last time i was in this state in 2018. It worked instantly, so if he's agreeable i shouldn't have to suffer much longer. The only thing that's different is that i'm on only 25% of the benzos i was then but hopefully that won't impact the effectiveness.

My wife and I got one of those Sleep Number bed. I like it and my wife did like it.

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Happy Easter to everyone

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Happy Easter to you too Otroo (and everyone else!)

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Originally Posted by Nammu Oh, Beth I’m sorry you didn’t sleep either. But I’m overjoyed you got a visit with your sister, how nice. We should switch curtains. The ones in the bedroom are ivory lace but don’t go to well with the bohemian comforter my daughter bought me. Grey would work nicely tho. Then I’d have to paint the whole room though, maybe a light grey?

Ooh, ivory lace sounds lovely. I'm so mad, all week-end FedEx told me that my curtains would arrive "by the end of the day" today, but now they're telling me that there's no set date yet as to when they'll arrive. *sigh* I hope they come tomorrow.

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Originally Posted by whatever2013 Thanks for the kind words @Soupe du jour, especially while you are on holiday and dealing with so much already. Also thanks to @BethRags and @wildflowerchild25 for the concern. I'll be busy tomorrow dealing with electricians here to do an upgrade so i emailed in to my doctor asking for some Wellbutrin as this is what we used last time i was in this state in 2018. It worked instantly, so if he's agreeable i shouldn't have to suffer much longer. The only thing that's different is that i'm on only 25% of the benzos i was then but hopefully that won't impact the effectiveness.

Welbutrin helps so many people. I'm relieved to know that you've emailed your doctor.

I read an article today about a new AP that is used for bipolar disorder depression. It's called "caplyta" and can be used alone or as an adjunct. Who knows. I don't know how it's any different than Seroquel and possibly a few others.