Bipolar check-in #64

Nammu · Apr 22, 2022 at 09:11 PM

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I did go to the gym but only made it 15 minutes on the machine(s). But considering the weight I’ve gained plus the fact I haven’t been there in months I think that’s not so bad. I was 20 minutes late for program though. Had to get gas and a snack.

We’re taking my son to crystal cave in PA tomorrow. I have always refused to go because I’m extremely claustrophobic and the idea of a cave scares the crap out of me but I looked at pictures and it’s quite open. My mind will still be whirring about cave ins and whatnot but I know the damn thing has been an attraction for 150 years and there’s never been an issue so I’ll try to get over it.

my fan just broke and it’s stuffy and oppressively quiet in my bedroom. It will be hard to sleep, I’m so used to the fan noise. Been using one for white noise for a decade now. Definitely top priority to buy a new one after our trip tomorrow. I took the melatonin and seroquel but I also took a nap today, albeit short. I don’t want to take more seroquel, I will be drowsy tomorrow and we have to leave relatively early for the trip. Early for me anyway lol.

That sounds like a fun trip. Good for you.

wildflowerchild25 · Apr 22, 2022 at 09:42 PM

I’m regards to earth day, if anyone has Netflix and likes nature documentaries, the great national parks (narrated by Barack Obama) is just fantastic. We’ve watched the first introductory episode and the next one focused on Chilean Patagonia and they are great. Hardly any gruesome deaths as compared to nat geo ones either!

Moose72 · Apr 22, 2022 at 09:55 PM

The recital went very well. Caleb liked it because it was live but added that he wouldn't've listened had it been a recording. And he said that the sound engineering sucked- even though he knew that that was my kids' dad doing the sound. Dinner was ok. Quite tasty actually. I had steak with mashed potatoes and Mac n cheese. Then we split bananas foster for dessert. Caleb always spends the night when he visits but he decided he wanted to drive the 2 hours home starting at 1030. He said he had a good time so why did he leave? Ah well. The smoking wasn't an issue after all- he smoked while we were outside walking from dinner to a shop that we visited to kill time before the recital. So that took care of what to do between dinner and the show. I think he also went outside to smoke after the recital because he disappeared for a while. But all in all the smoking wasn't a huge deal. Im kind of glad he went home tonight so that I can go to sleep when I want tonight.

BeyondtheRainbow · Apr 22, 2022 at 10:14 PM

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Originally Posted by whatever2013

@BeyondtheRainbow:

You are handling this with such courage. It's really impressive.

Thanks Jane. You brought tears to my eyes. I feel anything but courageous. I am just trying to face it one step at a time and hopefully by this point next week it will all be over. And if it's not over I'll at least know that.

Apr 23, 2022 at 05:37 AM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

How rotten, to have an idiot sister, especially an older one. I despise those stupid "choice" things. I just laugh when I go to Marshall's and see crap like that stitched onto throw pillows. Give me a break. Another one I used to see on pillows was "You can never be too rich or too thin" - well, not unless you have anorexia, or are going through chemo, or spent time in a concentration camp, or....oh, grrr. Those things are so asinine.

I'm sorry that the Wellbutrin isn't kicking in. But don't give up on it! Every time we take a med there are so many considerations - even time of the year. Hopefully it'll start working over the week-end. If not, the good thing about AD's is that there are so many of them.

There is still a long way to go when it comes to the knowlege of MI in the general popuøation!

Apr 23, 2022 at 05:43 AM

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I’m regards to earth day, if anyone has Netflix and likes nature documentaries, the great national parks (narrated by Barack Obama) is just fantastic. We’ve watched the first introductory episode and the next one focused on Chilean Patagonia and they are great. Hardly any gruesome deaths as compared to nat geo ones either!

Thank you for telling!

Apr 23, 2022 at 06:35 AM

I have had a good time in the new home. Easter was good, many days with either being a guest or having guests. Good food and good company. Yesterday, however, "things" turned. My thoughts spiraled around a happening before Easter when a person treated me badly. I was not able to do anything before in the evening. Then I was able to heat a soup.

This morning has been slow (low motivation), but at last I decided to become a member at a Gym nearby. After that I was not able to get into my Google account and that meant that I was not able to use the apps for the Gym. So small happenings and still they were able to put me out of my stability.

I give up trying to get a new Google account today. The Gym has to wait until after the weekend. I will visit it then. It helped a bit to talk about it.

When one is active, trying to make something to work (like how to make food at Easter) and then is back to the week days without a plan, some sort of emptiness can occur. I think that is what happened to me yesterday, as if I suddenly sat there naked and didn't know how to dress.

I am on my way. I will eat a slice of bread, shower, do something in the home and then take trip out. It is sunny today.

Send good hopes to you all!

Soupe du jour · 08:27 AM

This morning I see my dad, sister, brother, and nephew before heading north for the second half of our US visit. I'm ready. I feel satisfied with the frequency that I saw everyone. Surely less than if we stayed with someone, but hey, that's my family situation.

Right now I'm resting while Hubby finishes his packing. As usual, I'm finished way before him. Nevertheless, we're on schedule.

Sunflower123 · Apr 23, 2022 at 11:53 AM

I have a painful rash on my body that has remained for days. I have a fever and don’t feel well either. I’ve been very fatigued and have slept many hours over the past several days. I was able to go out and run some errands yesterday including getting a spa pedicure. Tomorrow I meet M halfway. I’m looking forward to seeing her as she couldn’t come in for Easter. I hope I feel well enough to go. I am resting today in order to accomplish that.

I feel well mood wise. I’m just under the weather physically. Frustrating.

I hope everyone has a peaceful weekend. Hugs to all!

Nammu · Apr 23, 2022 at 12:20 PM

Hope your rash clears up and you feel physically better soon, Jennifer.

BeyondtheRainbow · Apr 23, 2022 at 12:21 PM

@Pinny are you doing ok? I'm sure you are busy with work and wedding planning and puppy training.

BeyondtheRainbow · Apr 23, 2022 at 12:24 PM

Jennifer are you on Lamictal? A rash and a fever together is a concerning rash. In fact it is with any meds, but epspecially with lamictal. Can you get checked at an urgent care?

*Beth* · Apr 23, 2022 at 12:37 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

Beth I PMed you with the link to the Livestream. They are live now. Recital starts now.

Thank you, Moose. I'll listen after I get some sleep.

*Beth* · Apr 23, 2022 at 12:43 PM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I have a surgery time for Monday......5:30 AM!!!!!! Fortunately we were able to work it out so we can go to the city the night before and spend the night so we'll have to leave the hotel at 5:15 which is much better than 3:00 from here.

I will go and get checked in and prepped then they'll take me from one side of the hospital (many buildings, this is a huge hospital) to another for placement of the thing that marks where they need to cut. I can't tell you how exciting that is knowing I'll be wearing a gown open in front and nothing else (blankets, as many as they'll give me ) although at least some buildings won't be busy yet.

Then I get to have what my pdoc calls the medevial torture chamber device which is like the biopsy I had last month laying flat on my stomach with my breast through a hole while they put in the guide wires or reflector device that will help them know where to cut. Then back to surgery.

Surgery takes about an hour once I actually get there and then they get me set up. So I'm assuming I'll be done by 10 or so.

It feels real. I'm glad but I'm just so ready to be done with this. Especially the tour of the hospital with my breasts hanging out . And the climbing around on the torture device with an IV in my arm. That wasn't easy when I didn't have anything I could rip out.

3 more days...

Wow. Your courage is AMAZING Hug yourself, be proud of yourself! You deserve the #1 winning blue ribbon just for your fabulous sense of humor! I'm still counting down with you (I think we all are). I'll be checking for you on Monday, so check in if you can.

*Beth* · Apr 23, 2022 at 12:50 PM

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I have a painful rash on my body that has remained for days. I have a fever and don’t feel well either. I’ve been very fatigued and have slept many hours over the past several days. I was able to go out and run some errands yesterday including getting a spa pedicure. Tomorrow I meet M halfway. I’m looking forward to seeing her as she couldn’t come in for Easter. I hope I feel well enough to go. I am resting today in order to accomplish that.

I feel well mood wise. I’m just under the weather physically. Frustrating.

I hope everyone has a peaceful weekend. Hugs to all!

You know, a rash is not a good sign. Could you have shingles? Scarlet fever (I've had it twice, once as an adult)? I hope it's not a reaction to medication. How are you feeling today?

HALLIEBETH87 · Apr 23, 2022 at 01:01 PM

Well Ben ate up at dinner last night. He was so excited about the fender telecaster! He played and played until
He had to go home. It made me happy to see him so happy!!!

*Beth* · Apr 23, 2022 at 01:02 PM

Whew, boy. Slept a few hours last night. I'm not sure what's going on. I felt very cold in bed so bundled myself up in clothes and socks. Still couldn't sleep.

My son, Noah (I have a Noah - an N1 (my daughter) and an N2 (Noah), just like Moose does ) and DIL are coming for a visit on Monday. Every year they spend the 3rd Sunday in April doing a bike ride in the mountains, it's called the Wildflower Ride. 100 miles! Good Lord. Anyway, they'll be stopping by on their way back to San Francisco. So I'm doing some extra "deep" cleaning plus I have to do laundry and some grocery shopping over the week-end.And right now I feel like I'm going to drop on the floor. I took Tylenol PM in the hope that I'll be able to sleep for 2 hours. Hope, hope.

A good Saturday to all! See ya later on

Mountaindewed · Apr 23, 2022 at 01:34 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

Whew, boy. Slept a few hours last night. I'm not sure what's going on. I felt very cold in bed so bundled myself up in clothes and socks. Still couldn't sleep.

My son, Noah (I have a Noah - an N1 (my daughter) and an N2 (Noah), just like Moose does ) and DIL are coming for a visit on Monday. Every year they spend the 3rd Sunday in April doing a bike ride in the mountains, it's called the Wildflower Ride. 100 miles! Good Lord. Anyway, they'll be stopping by on their way back to San Francisco. So I'm doing some extra "deep" cleaning plus I have to do laundry and some grocery shopping over the week-end.And right now I feel like I'm going to drop on the floor. I took Tylenol PM in the hope that I'll be able to sleep for 2 hours. Hope, hope.

A good Saturday to all! See ya later on

I'm in the process of changing my legal middle name to Noah.

Sunflower123 · Apr 23, 2022 at 02:15 PM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Jennifer are you on Lamictal? A rash and a fever together is a concerning rash. In fact it is with any meds, but epspecially with lamictal. Can you get checked at an urgent care?

I’m not on Lamictal but an urgent care is an excellent idea. I’m supposed to see my dermatologist Monday morning but I don’t know that I can hold out that long. The rash is very painful. Thank you.

Sunflower123 · Apr 23, 2022 at 02:18 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

You know, a rash is not a good sign. Could you have shingles? Scarlet fever (I've had it twice, once as an adult)? I hope it's not a reaction to medication. How are you feeling today?

I’m going to get checked out at an urgent care as BeyondTheRainbow suggested. I feel lousy and it’s getting worse and not better. Thank you.

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Nammu Crone Member Since May 2010 Location: Some where between my inner mind and the solar system. Posts: 73,981 (SuperPoster!) 14 57.3k hugs given	Apr 23, 2022 at 12:20 PM #1030 Hope your rash clears up and you feel physically better soon, Jennifer. __________________ *Nammu* …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann

BeyondtheRainbow Wise Elder Member Since Apr 2015 Location: US Posts: 9,665 (SuperPoster!) 9 11.9k hugs given	Apr 23, 2022 at 12:21 PM #1031 @Pinny are you doing ok? I'm sure you are busy with work and wedding planning and puppy training. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily

HALLIEBETH87 Legendary Member Since Oct 2004 Location: usa Posts: 11,607 20 2,808 hugs given	Apr 23, 2022 at 01:01 PM #1036 Well Ben ate up at dinner last night. He was so excited about the fender telecaster! He played and played until He had to go home. It made me happy to see him so happy!!! __________________ schizoaffective bipolar type PTSD generalized anxiety d/o haldol, prazosin, risperdal and prn klonopin and helpful cogentin