Restart: Diary 2.0

Have a great trip Hexagon!

Just want to say the trip through Europe is going good. So far. Yes, I’m a bit exhausted for driving such long (I don’t underestimate my mental illness, far from it), but now I’m in a hotel in Germany. What a lovely people they are, here in the hotel. I booked my hotel via Booking.com and everything went so smooth. When I arrived they had everything on me. I just needed to sign - that was it.

Now I’m in the bed. Will soon (try) fall asleep. I didn’t stupidly brought Zopiclone “The K.O.-pill” because I haven’t use that pill for more than a month. And I believed so much that I would take care of this night without it as well. Perhaps I will, but I need to go down a notch a bit from all this stress from driving. When I just shut my eyes, I see all this autibahn, as visualisation. Just as I did all other years. I am, however, am very experienced driver but even to me it can be tricky.

If I (maybe) get any slightest problem, I’ll take one more Olanzapine instead (5mg that would be all in all). Luckily I planned my trip very well, especially my medicines. Have a great evening!

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Dear reader. At last I’m here at my destination. In Croatia. I’ll update my diary nevertheless, but wow. That car drive from Germany to here took hell of a power out of me. And I did it. Again. Against as many possible odds there is. I’m tired, but not overtired. I will sleep hard this time.

I’m sending you some greeting from a mountain in Austria. It’s one part of the Alps. No matter how foggy it is, be always the mountain. When fog disappear, you will always be there. Keep that in mind.

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Dear reader. I’m in Croatia now. Everything is okay. I’m having so much fun that I completely forgot about social media or Tapatalk. Days just fly away. I have spent lately my time here with my close family and friends. Swimming a lot, sun. Eating good food.

Shame that I can’t attach an new pic here (not sure what is wrong atm), but it’s midnight here now and I’ll see if I can send any cool postcard tomorrow here.

Life is really good. So don’t save it, spend it and be with the good.

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I'm glad you're enjoying your holiday.


You made me smile - the autobahn, I was on it once and it was a bit much.


My son has traveled to Croatia several times; he finds it a very beautiful, friendly land.

Dear reader. I haven’t been so much here. Always things to do. If not to the beach, then to see family and relatives. I’m fearing now that the another wave of Covid-19 will hit us (probably it already did). This new, mutation from India. I have three doses and I had omicron in January, so in scientific theory I am sort of immune. Of course, there is no 100% immunity. In anything so to speak.

I promised you a post card, didn’t I? Here it is, from this evening. It’s from the little harbour, also known as “Tito’s Riva”. Or “Titova Riva” in Croatian. It was here that Josip Broz Tito arrived from his residence in Brijuni Islands (he battered to the shore by his speedboat, that old fox). Then he sat in a coffee shop among Fažana’s residents. So when he got discovered (imagine the panic by his guards) the entire town came to him, they all sang and had a such great time.

Tito was peoples leader. Tito was their all. It’s unfortunate that some still believe that he had an “regime” who was an Marxist or Leninistic regime. That kind of regime USSR, China, North Korea and Iron Curtain-countries had (and some still have). In matter of fact, China went full rage against Tito in the 1950s and wrote all kind of bad news about him and his “Titoism”. Because he was too liberal for them. Imagine then that day in 1953 - just after the Korea-war - when Tito got invited by 34th American president and a decorated WW2 commander: Dwight D. Eisenhower. Same year as the death of Joseph Stalin. Imagine how USSR felt, when that little trip to US got them all in rage-mode. Including China who now ordered to write as much propaganda as possible against Tito.

If I say this, dear reader: that during Yugoslavia, the workers could via their unions vote in a new Vice President of a company and vote for a board. Or to change it. Yes, the workers could do that. That companies built all these hotels you now can see (fully restored) by the same companies from the workers. So the vacation was almost free. Is that regime?

People sometimes forget about that. And there is so much to tell. But I’m not here to educate you, dear reader. I’m here to write my story about myself and my days. I hoped you enjoyed this view just as much as I did tonight.

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Sorry to not being able to write here for some time. I had great time in Croatia, but unfortunately I had sun stroke (or heat stroke). My legs kind of turned into rubber and I barely didn’t got hospitalised. Everything span around me and it was as if an I was in a carousel.

I’m now home in Sweden. After three weeks. But I don’t think I’ll ever go visit Croatia in July. Probably in August or June. Arrived last night after two days in car. Now I’m okay. Legs are getting better so now it’s just rest and rest. Anyway, I’m okay. Despite bipolar and that I didn’t made any dips whatsoever. It was just this sun stroke.

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Six days have passed now since I’ve been here. It wasn’t meant to not be such long, but I needed to rest from everything. My legs are back. I did some of my regular long-walks. Tomorrow I have plan to by me some watermelon who arrived from Greece. And that is pretty much it.

I have stopped to do any plans. No more. Because, before when I all did this, it hit back on me. And in worst case scenario it could’ve been an tsunami. That is why I just take moment by moment. Just easy and simple. No more plans, no more being strategical mastermind. I just want to be. That’s it.

I’ve would’ve discussed some other topics, like climate change dear reader, but I’ll save it for next time. But to be very honest: it’s doesn’t look good. And it might be also too late.

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I was watching a movie tonight on cinema, with my family. It was solid movie - Jurassic World Dominion (have seen them al nowl). Not bad, but not top notch either. However, there were some scenes that crossed my mind (mild spoiler). That we humans want to use the genetics to control things. Control, such as in the movie - crops (by mutated swarms of grasshoppers). To literal control the life and death even on humans with the genetic engineering.

Sure, I know that in the movie they wanted to cure diseases such as cancer, Alzheimer’s etc. Even various viruses. Perhaps even the HIV itself. But at cost of what? Experiments first on animals and then on humans? So we end up in a future like in the cancelled Netflix-series Altered Carbon, where people could recycle themselves into new and improved versions of themselves (read shells)? That means those who are in good position in their ranks in that future society (higher cast/elite). Yes, silly fantasy but still.

To be bit honest, I wouldn’t be surprised if we one day start actively cloning humans. We do have the technology already for it. So what makes us not to? We just need another goof of a president or government in charge to disobey all ethical and moral sensibilities, change the justice system, take huge advantage of it and rewrite the laws. And we will have it. Despite if we are ready for that - or not. Cause we people decided to not be in charge by letting those who will do all this by - for example - not voting. Or voting on wrong reasons (being under influence of the propaganda and such). Cause some people in power do simply not care about other people, even if they say they do. They only care about the greed, the profit and how to exploit any system. An yet YOU let them rule…

You see, dear reader, I’m not religious. I’m scientific, which means I believe in science. But I also believe in sense and logic. With that comes ethic and moral. And on top of it all: empathy (something that’s rare to have even 2022). Which tells me that I’m not surprised at all if there are todays superpowers (such as China) who can literally start clone humans for their own purposes. Just as they hold millions of different viruses where 1/3 or so can wipe out entire life from this very planet - from the tiniest microorganism to the blue whale. If humans started with this already in the beginning of 20th century (with Hans Dreisch and Hans Spemann), what makes you think the Dolly (the sheep who was cloned in 1996) was the last experiment?

If there is today (potentially) technology for cloning human organs, then there is technology for entire human being itself.

Perhaps I overanalysed this movie now. Perhaps not. Perhaps some people rather don’t want to know anything that simply isn’t their business. But remember: whatever you like or dislike, there is technology to improve us humans and perhaps even to create the perfect human. Just like it’s done with crops and animals. Something that many wanted achieve before, but failed due to other setbacks.

Part of me wants still that genetic engineering success (in a good, human way), and part of me don’t. Even if I know that this will probably be common one day in the not so distant future. Whatever you and I liked it, or not.

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How are you doing Hexagon? I've missed seeing you around here.