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#226
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Hey, @MuddyBoots. Sounds like you're getting down on yourself again. Give yourself a break. I don't spend much time around these parts lately, but I did notice you're making an attempt to stay clean. That's a huge step!
Sorry you're going through such a rough patch, @Tucson. I hope you're not in too much pain. |
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Thank you. All the pain came a couple months ago. Right now it only starts hurting if I overdo it. One witness, saw the car hit me, I flipped in the air and came down on the ground with my back down on the pavement.
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Well, I kinda get it. And I am still sending you love.
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#229
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Concerned. How are you @MuddyBoots ?
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Things are still hard, but I'm surviving. We lost power for a bit from the last storm, but it wasn't bad because it was in the low 40's yesterday. There's still 27 people on NHEC out of power. I had a pdoc appointment yesterday and she's decreasing my Haldol, increasing my doxepin, and she wants me to do some research and decide between Rexulti and Vraylar for a replacement because of the tremors I've been having. I'm leaning towards Vraylar because I know last I was on it, I didn't gain weight.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for." "Why not?" "Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them." "What, are you crazy?" "It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet," |
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#231
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I'm glad you've checked in. That your pdoc respects you doing your own research on meds is commendable. Most of the prescribers I've had get defensive when I do my own research.
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I've decided to go with the Vraylar.
We finally have some snow on the ground.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for." "Why not?" "Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them." "What, are you crazy?" "It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet," |
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#233
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Gorgeous photograph, Boots. It reminds me of a time before there were people.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for." "Why not?" "Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them." "What, are you crazy?" "It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet," |
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#235
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I'm sending you love, Boots. I really am.
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#236
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Boots, gentle hugs. Do you have anyone you can call for support?
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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Sending you purple healing/soothing vibes. Hugs if you want them.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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What to do what to do what to do?
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I would not get together as it sounds more stressful than it's worth.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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I really don't want to cancel just because I have some cuts. I've blown him off two weeks in a row already.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for." "Why not?" "Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them." "What, are you crazy?" "It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet," |
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Well, what do you mean by he'll "get angry" with you?
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He'll just be pissed. He might get even more forceful.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for." "Why not?" "Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them." "What, are you crazy?" "It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet," |
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Well, it sounds like you're setting yourself up to be abused. I don't believe in telling adult people to do or not do something, but I will say that the idea of you being hurt makes me extremely sad.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for." "Why not?" "Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them." "What, are you crazy?" "It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet," |
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I swear to god this was laced with meth
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"I don't know what I'm looking for." "Why not?" "Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them." "What, are you crazy?" "It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet," |
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My case worker is very concerned about me for some reason. Says I'm obviously on an upswing. I'm worried she's going to tell my pdoc I got high (I had a bit of word fvomit) and I'll have to go back to the state hospital. Fckc I can't even type I'm so anxious.. Like I'm on a laptop and my legs are shaking violently. She says I'm setting myself up to be abused just like Beth said. I need a break from hurting myself, let someone else do it for a bit! It might not even go down that road again, the dude seems a lot cooler than he used to be. I need to go skiing again, I just got a bunch of work done on my car. and now I''m broke but I think I can afford a $45 lift ticket and some gas.
Also there's like a million "covers" of Apple Bottom Jeans (it's a meme) and it's fccking hilarious. My favorite is " welp, we just hit the record windchill ever on Mt. Washington in scenic, windiest recorded place on Earth, New Hampshire
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"I don't know what I'm looking for." "Why not?" "Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them." "What, are you crazy?" "It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet," Last edited by MuddyBoots; Feb 03, 2023 at 06:15 PM. |
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#247
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I think skiing is a great idea, Boots, although I don't know about that extreme weather landing on you. Using physical energy can be a dynamic way to channel high mental energy, as I'm sure you already know.
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Yeah, I'm thinking sometime midweek this week when ticket prices are down and the temps go up. We might even get a little bit of the white stuff Tuesday/Wednesday.
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The prices of lift tickets, wow. One of the ski resorts here (well, in the mountains, not right here ![]() ![]() ![]()
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"I don't know what I'm looking for." "Why not?" "Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them." "What, are you crazy?" "It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet," |
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