[Victoria'smom]

So I'm depressed everyone knows it, I'm isolating , my hair is knotted and I'm overwhelmed. I'm having negative thoughts but I'm also comfy. I deserve this. T didn't like that I was going to sit in it until it passes. She wants me to up myself care. I want to just blend into the background. I don't have the energy to deal with Life. I'm mad I'm like this. I have cursed everyone around me for existing maybe I can sleep through the week.

[downandlonely]

How long has this been going on?

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs. I have not experienced feeling comfortable in depression. I find it agonising. You do NOT ''deserve'' depression or anything bad or unpleasant. Hope this passes soon for you. Also wondering how long this has been going on? Maybe do ONE small thing for self care today? Whether or not you think you deserve it. I've done that today and it helped a bit.

[MuddyBoots]

Based on your post, you don't sound comfortable. Sounds like your depression is telling you lies. I get the feeling though, of deserving to be in a depressive state. But like I said: lies. What's one act of self-care/self-love you can do for yourself today?

[Victoria'smom]

I'm going to try and unknot my hair today. So I can get it cut. I've lost count a couple of weeks maybe. I talked to pdoc Monday and nothing came of that. T dropped me down to every 2 weeks. There's stuff I have to do today/tomorrow and I don't want to do any of it.

[*Beth*]

If I stood in your shoes I would try not to think about anything except unknotting my hair so I can get a nice hair cut.

[Victoria'smom]

Well my hair is still knotted. I had to cancel next week so I don't see t for 3 weeks. I had no choice. She was double booked and I didn't know if I'd make it anyway that day. So 3 weeks to get my act together. I need to cut and dye my hair. I still need to get the housing stuff done. My head is loud. I took a nap today to escape it. I feel so dumb and scattered.