Bipolar Check-in #80

@HALLIEBETH87

I am so sorry for your loss. How are you holding up?

Since we're all posting images of our furbabies, here's an image of my cat, Licorice. I have 2 other cats but need to get some better photos of them. They aways blink or turn away when I try to snap their pictures! Sorry, I don't know how to shrink it! I'd love to see more pet pics. Even if it is off topic for bipolar. But I know my cats cheer me up quite a bit, make me laugh sometimes, and help my anxiety too. So in that since, they're kind of a bit of a "medication" to help mental illness--and without side effects (well, unless you are allergic!).



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This is my cat Pecan (named because she first hung out under our pecan tree when we rescued her as a stray). She is my cat that jumps on me in the morning and wakes me up! She never does this to H, but she knows I'm the one who feeds her in the morning!



And here is my cat Midnight. We feed Midnight well but she is very skinny because she has histoplasmosis (a fungus cats can get from bird poop). We are treating her with an anti-fungal, but this is a long-running infection. Our vet said the last cat she treated with histo took 9 months to recover. We've only gotten Midnight to actually TAKE her medication for around 5 months so far. She gets another round of tests at the vet in September. Before medication, she was very lethargic and slept most of the time. Now, she has perked up and is back to her old self again, chasing her tail, going in & out, stalking birds outside (though luckily hasn't caught any but the neighborhood birds all have the down-low to steer clear of our house with all these cats around!). She has gained some weight but still has more to go.

So cute! Midnight knows they are a little panther!

im ok really right now. hes wanted to die since last march hen he lost my mawmaw. hes free from his grief now.

@HALLIEBETH87 I'm sorry for your loss, but at least you know he's not suffering anymore. Take extra good care of yourself during this time

This is my cat. His name is Bob. He's never been in the house (thank God, I might get a little cut up), I've never fed him (to my knowledge at least haha), and we get a little nervous when we see him. Not fixed. No clue where he came from, but is definitely a local.


lmao but seriously, this is Bo. He's that 80 y/o dude on a Harley with the grey beard and bald head gettin' the wind. Except he's a 20 year old black cat who likes to sleep on the top step to the basement.

@MuddyBoots -

Awesome pics of your furbabies! Got a sense of humor I see!

OMG...daughter just came out of her room up throwing up with diarrhea! Kid is NEVER sick and she gets the first day H goes into work in 2 weeks! I called H and he said with rush hour, it'll be at least 2 hr. before he gets home. Daughter seems to be feeling better now that she's thrown up. I'm SOO hoping she stays feeling better.

@Blueberrybook

I LOVE your cats. We have two black cats and they're my babies. One is my official ESA. I love them forever.

I don't think I'm hypo anymore. I think I'm leveling out. I'm so sleepy tired. Yawn. 🥱 I have so much work to catch up on. With the ezine and I have to listen to the audiobook version of my book straight through again to make sure there are no mistakes. Ugh. I'm so sick of Ava I could puke. Again, love her to death of course still, we just need to spend some time apart. I need to be DONE with that project so I can focus on my new project.

My sleep has still been shyt, but I've been having more rest periods yesterday and today. Oh yawn. This past hypomanic episode was the strangest hypomanic episode I've ever had, and while it was quite painful and intolerable at times, it actually taught me a lot. Like, I feel things more intensely now than before the episode, and it made me enjoy love more 💕 and music 🎶 and the night 🌙, and has cast everything in this beautiful, divine glow. It's made me realize how much I enjoy my family time and how much I love Husband. ❤️ I don't know. Usually during my hypomanic episodes I just get hyperfocused on my writing, so this one was obviously MUCH different.

Oh, and I have a TON of books I need to read because I couldn't concentrate really on reading while hypo.

So, yawn, LOTS of work to catch up!

See you just posted about your kid being sick. So whats the difference?

Theres a lot of double standards going on in this thread lately about who can post what.

Also quite a bit of spamming and pushing other peoples posts so they are buried.

@MuddyBoots

Love your cats too of course. 😊

I have 2 nieces and their birthdays are 4 weeks apart so we have one big family party and then they have their separate friends parties. The oldest is 14 tomorrow and the younger is 11 in August. I can't believe how quickly they are growing up! The 14 year old has been taller than me for about a year (I'm only 5'3") and now the 11 year old is starting to grow fast too. I don't think she'll be as tall as her sister though. I think the older sister will be 5'6" or 5'7" when she is done growing. The younger one has a smaller frame and has always been smaller than her sister at the same age. We'll see though.


I have to wrap their presents, except the ones that are either hopefully coming tomorrow or that I know are coming late. I'm sad about that but shipping takes time. At least I have something physical for each of them until the rest of their things arrive. Gifts now are so different than a few years ago when they wanted toys.

It's actually better to post multiple times than to edit your posts if you want people to read everything. I've noticed that before with your posts and have meant to mention it. You will do an edit on a post that's a little older and the only time I see it is when I go backwards up the thread to do hugs. If I don't have a day I feel like going up the threads I miss some of what you post.

I don't think anyone is spamming the thread. This is a thread for people with bipolar and with hypomania comes the need to talk a lot. I've been there and it would make me very sad to know that people resented me for doing what I needed to do on a board that is supposed to support me.I've also had depressions when I needed a lot of support from this group and I hope nobody has resented my asking for it. I feel guilty enough posting when I'm depressed without knowing I'm resented.

Spamming the thread would be constantly posting that everyone should try _______ treatment for every single thing someone posted was an issue, or something like that. Posting symptoms or just needing to talk a lot is just bipolar and we need to let others have space when it comes to that.

I'm 5'3" and Daughter is only twelve and already taller than me! Lol. Husband and Daughter look like giants next to me. Wish I could post a pic. It would be funny. 😁 My nephew and niece are both short though, taking more after their mom and grandma.

Yeah. Present shopping is definitely different now compared to when Daughter just wanted toys. Now it's harder! I mean, she has books, her phone, her laptop... what more does the kid need? This year we're taking her to a concert of a band she really likes since she was upset that Husband and I are going to so many without her, but she was still like, "I'm getting presents, right?" Shyt! I don't know what to get the kid! She's a Tom boy and hates clothes and all things girly. Ugh. We'll figure something out.

@Blueberrybook

I hope your daughter feels better! I hope she isn't sick again. That's the worst. Does she have food poisoning maybe?

@raspberrytorte

I don't think it's food poisoning. We didn't eat anything I can think of that might have been sketchy. She said she was dizzy and cold too but is feeling a bit better now. She's got a bit more color to her and has perked up. I hope it was a short-lived virus. The crazy thing is I can't think that she's been around anyone sick to pick it up from lately either.

I think I took way too many aspirin. I know they say it's not really good for your stomach but my headache WAS so bad today, I just had to take them. I haven't had a headache like that in quite a long time. I mean I did do a whole lot today. I chaired my AA meeting and brought the topic of "loneliness" which was really well received - then went out to lunch with all the ladies and talked for three hours! Omg, maybe that's what caused the bad headache, lol. Plus, the chimichangas, I love me some Mexican!

My friend also gave me a belated birthday present and wrote me a letter with a card that was so nice - I ended up having to wear a huge sombrero while every one sang happy birthday too even though I had done that all already two weeks ago - do you think they know I celebrated twice? LOL.

It's tough to feel unheard or unappreciated on this forum, especially this bipolar section. We all go through extremes where we don't fall under the spectrum of most people. I would never tell someone what they couldn't post or if they post too much because I've been through times like @BeyondtheRainbow said, that I didn't even know what I was doing, I was just looking for an outlet because no one else would hear me or listen. I'm sorry it's been hard for everyone; I hope we can still move forward and at least express ourselves on this thread, because for some people it's all we have.

You are in my thoughts and prayers @HALLIEBETH87 - I am deeply sorry for your loss.

The difference is between "my kid is throwing up," (not something that resembles disordered eating, and was mentioned once) and "I ate x, y, and z and threw up b amount of times today." (which does resemble ED type stuff, and your posts here almost always contain that content. Once you talked about continuing to throw up at the same time you said you lost 6lbs, and a few times you've said something along the lines of "I threw up and feel better now," and I know I should be the one to suck it up and move on, but I just wanted to let you know that content like that can be incredibly triggering to people w/Eds. I know eating disorders and bipolar are commonly comorbid, too, so I just brought something up in case someone is bipolar, has an eating disorder, and reads that and thinks "damn that purging felt great before it ruined my health").

Like @BeyondtheRainbow said, we're all bipolar, and quite a few of us are hypomanic or manic right now. I think the frequent posting of people in a more elevated state is a good thing because their being here means they're not off ruining relationships, putting themselves in debt, impulsively grabbing the keys and nothing else planning to drive across the continent, winding up in handcuffs or ambulances, and whatever other actions members of the group tend to take during mania.

Please don't feel like I'm bashing you or judging you or anything. I really do understand and care, but right now I feel like I have to point it out that the numbers of times you vomit and everything you eat and drink is not appreciated for those that struggle or have struggled with disordered eating.

You can tell me to fcck off though. Post what you want, but don't wonder why you're not receiving support after a certain point.

I agree with @BeyondtheRainbow and @LadyShadow. Sometimes bipolar episodes just take over and you find yourself doing and saying things you wouldn't normally do or say. I don't know. And this is a BIPOLAR thread. We've all been there and should be understanding. We know what hypomania/mania and depression is like and how sometimes you post things you wouldn't normally post but just feel like you HAVE TO for some reason. Or how during hypomania/mania sometimes your thoughts are SO racing you just HAVE TO GET THEM DOWN.

Anyway, so peace and love ❤️ everyone and know that nothing annoys me or is considered too TMI (you could post about your explosive diarrhea and I still wouldn't think it was TMI... lol. I'm just like that).

The only thing that would trigger me is if someone came on here and started spouting off religious stuff or something because of my bad, past trauma with it regarding my parents.

How many aspirin did you take?

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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte How many aspirin did you take?

Girllllll ... I took 4 - omg. But it went away. I can function now. It was BAD and wasn't going away at all : (

My mind just won't slow down.

I want to be able to relax, but my thoughts are racing, racing, racing.

This bipolar is some CRAZY shyt!