Bipolar Check-in #83

BeyondtheRainbow · Oct 12, 2024, 12:59 AM

@otroo I remember you! I'm so glad that you are doing better. I remember how much you were struggling when you were posting. I'm sure it's still incredibly painful but it sounds like things are better.

Glad you got to go to the concert even if you had to go alone! That's great you talked to strangers. You are braver than I am.

BeyondtheRainbow · Oct 12, 2024, 01:01 AM

@Crazy Hitch Does it take more than one hypnosis session for it to work? I know little about it but most things take more than one time to work so I would imagine that it might also be true with hypnosis. Do you have more sessions coming up?

BeyondtheRainbow · Oct 12, 2024, 01:44 AM

It's nearly 3 AM and I'm once again wide awake. I may have to contact my pdoc about this sooner than my appointment Friday. I had a decent night last night (only up once for about 45 minutes) but it's like I'm paying for that now. I don't know what is wrong with me. I don't feel hypo. I may start alternating 12 and 9 mg Emsam patches to see if that's it but I really don't feel manicky. I feel anxious.

The only thing to worry about now is that we're seeing another house Sunday. My mom said no more until spring but this has several things we want and a great price so it's worth a look. It's not even open for visits yet and there aren't a lot of pictures on the real estate page so we'll see. I'm just tired of the moving/not moving roller coaster.

I'm maybe getting a little sleepy????? We'll see.

Mountaindewed · 03:07 AM

I woke up twice with kinda anxiety attacks. My dreams weren't nightmares. I can't even remember them. I took a valium and blew a bunch of stuff out of my nose so I could breathe again. I can smell better too. I'm just kinda blah right now and Spotify is acting up again and I have tried everything possible to fix it. Even updating my phone didn't work.

I'm still a bit anxious and my music really sucks now. I think I'll just need to get a new phone. Mine is 3 years old and

Possible trigger:

fell complelelty submerged in my bucket a couple months ago. I'm suprised it even worked after that

MuddyBoots · Oct 12, 2024, 06:09 AM

I've been up for HOURS and the sun is just coming up! And now I have a sore on the tip of my tongue. I hope med person is here early, but it'll probably be in like four hours from now. There are too many songs in my head! because I'm hungry like the wooooollllllfffffff The mountains have snow! Mt Washington hiking season is over in my books. Over 30% of days on that bad boy involve hurricane force winds up to 231mph!

It's Saturday though, so travelling NB on any major highway is a no-no. Fk I made tea and it's probably too strong. I didn't sleep well though. I kept waking up and when I got up at 1am I was up for a loooong while.

Blueberrybook · Oct 12, 2024, 07:53 AM

I woke up feeling down today. I don't know if it's the lack of exercise because of having a pulled groin muscle which is taking forever to heal or what. I'm also having looping thoughts on a consistent basis that I find myself thinking every time I am not busy with something else. I am really hoping this is not the start of depression. I hope the day starts to get better.

HALLIEBETH87 · Oct 12, 2024, 07:56 AM

I slept ok. All my meds
Plus klonopin knocked me out. Husband works
Today so
I’m going to my granny’s

HALLIEBETH87 · Oct 12, 2024, 08:21 AM

I think the mania is gone

Nammu · Oct 12, 2024, 08:31 AM

I’m up, I’m up. Did have trouble sleeping. I was dreaming I was on the space station with some dorks. There was a live person smashed under liquid plastic that I was cutting free. And some king of an alien flower that substitutes as handcuffs. But anyway I managed to get up. Just need to stop at the bank and get cash before driving to my daughter’s house. We’re going garage sale ing today. Three generations of us.

Tonight I will try the seroquel. The pills are tiny. So it shouldn’t be hard to add to my nightly cocktail. I only hope it works.

otroo · Oct 12, 2024, 10:43 AM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

@otroo I remember you! I'm so glad that you are doing better. I remember how much you were struggling when you were posting. I'm sure it's still incredibly painful but it sounds like things are better.

Glad you got to go to the concert even if you had to go alone! That's great you talked to strangers. You are braver than I am.

Yeah i actually think I should of been put into inpatient all i did was cry all day every day for i don't know how long. I still get teary everya couple of times a day. But doing tons better. Oh and thank you.

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Blue_Bird · Oct 12, 2024, 10:47 AM

Hello, I slept good last night. Got 7 hours plus I took a short nap this morning. So far I’ve done yoga, meditated, journaled, walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes, and changed my violin strings to a really high quality set my friend got me as a gift several months ago. Feeling pretty good. I felt like crap yesterday cause I only got 3 hours of sleep the night before. But I feel better after sleeping. I also talked on the phone to my friend for like an hour yesterday and it was nice to catch up and talk about music as he’s also a musician.

Gonna practice violin later. Other than that not much going on. My apartment is pretty organized right now so the only thing I really need to do is the dishes. I will clean thoroughly on Monday and do laundry then too.

One of my cats (Mustachio) cuddled up on me last night. It was very calming cause I had a weighted blanket on and she laid on top of that on my lap purring.

I had to reschedule yesterday’s therapy appointment, cause I didn’t feel up to doing EMDR on 3 hours of sleep. It just felt like too much.

I bought a case for my Nintendo Switch. It arrives tomorrow. Should make gaming more comfortable.

Reading a few different books right now. Two fantasy series, one fall romance book, and one biography.

And watching a bunch of shows. The Witcher, Naruto, Supernatural and Pokemon Horizons.

So I have plenty to do. I might go get a caramel macchiato with the leftover money on my gift card tomorrow at the Italian bakery/cafe. Mostly to get out of the house. Drink it while there and read.

Mountaindewed · Oct 12, 2024, 10:56 AM

I woke up really late this morning at 8:30. I was only up for maybe 20 minutes last night while I dealt with my weird anxiety which is gone now. I tend to sleep in late this time of year until daylight savings ends.

Today I am kinda down, but its not terrible. I just feel tired mainly. I'm lying in bed just eating a bag of apple slices. My stomach feels totally normal nausea and pain wise today.

unaluna · Oct 12, 2024, 11:49 AM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I tend to sleep in late this time of year until daylight savings ends.

Me too, isnt that funny how that works? Its like we're cows. Farmers always complain that cows dont understand having to get up an hour earlier when DST starts!

Moose72 · Oct 12, 2024, 01:07 PM

Made myself go to the grocery store! It’s a lovely day out. I have the balcony door open. Dunno what to do. I could clean….. don’t want to.

HALLIEBETH87 · Oct 12, 2024, 01:27 PM

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Originally Posted by otroo

11/18/24 will be three years since my wife passed away. For the 1st or or so I was gone I mean I don't remember hardly anything. I mean I did a 5736 motorcycle ride in dedication to my wife. If it was not for pictures and a few memories I would not remember being on the trip. Last October I went back to work after having worked in 11 years. I was scared and my anxiety was through the roof but I was bound and determined to work my butt off and I did and it paid off I was promoted from a basic assembler to a hydraulics builder. I started to change for the better now a few months ago my dad fell he was not hurt except for some bruises. He had just moved out to Indiana from Idaho. I said yes and put in my notice at work which was hard to do but I felt I needed to help my dad out. The move has been the best thing I have done since my wife died my anxiety has been seriously been reduced my depression is not as bad I do grieve though. I went to a music festival 2 weeks ago in Louisville with my daughter well the band I wanted to see got rained. Long story I got comped tickets to a festival in Sacramento I said screw it and got everything I needed booked and off i wentSo yesterday was the band I wanted to see i almost chickened out I am 51 and have never been to a concert by myself. I said F it and went. I actually talked to strangers and just explored all around and i even got on the rail for Slayer. I had a great time yeah some moments of sadness every so often thinking about how Crystal would of liked this. Cypress Hill had a lady doing sign language thought that was cool. I am enjoying this growth i am experiencing. Bipolar Check-in #83

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Was
It louder than life
Or
Bourbon and beyond you went to?

MuddyBoots · Oct 12, 2024, 02:04 PM

I'm having another of those dizzy/nauseous/rolling carpet/blurry vision/hair growing backwards/sludge for brain episodes again. Ughhh. I feel really hot and it's only about 60F (I mean, I am inside, but even outside I had to strip off the hoodie.)

I think I'm just gonna get into summer sleepy clothes and lay down. I've been slightly go-go-go for a few days so actually just chilling might help.

Mountaindewed · Oct 12, 2024, 02:24 PM

I'm not feeling 100% physically today. I'm really tired and kinda achy and I just coughed up a bunch of post nasal drip. I've only had one valium though since I'm already so tired and lacking energy, but my anxiety is fine.

I went from staying inside my house for weeks to going out everywhere this week. So idk. My stomach is still fine though and I'm not going crazy for my stomach med.

Crazy Hitch · Oct 12, 2024, 03:43 PM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

@Crazy Hitch Does it take more than one hypnosis session for it to work? I know little about it but most things take more than one time to work so I would imagine that it might also be true with hypnosis. Do you have more sessions coming up?

Thanks so much for replying. She reckons that the average amount of sessions people take is 3, but given it’s $150 per session I don’t believe I’ll be doing any more 😔

Moose72 · Oct 12, 2024, 03:46 PM

Making chicken in the air fryer. There’s nobody to do anything with today.

Crazy Hitch · Oct 12, 2024, 04:22 PM

Going to the tip today so we can get rid of some rubbish.
Then going grocery shopping for the week - my least favourite chore.

Then my son has a birthday party at 2:00-4:00 today that I can’t really say I feel like going to but I will put on a happy face just for him (and then likely come home exhausted from faking a smile and making small talk with parents)

Victoria'smom · Oct 12, 2024, 04:36 PM

I've been working on my Facebook group. A little disappointed no one has joined but I can't advertise it.

Moose72 · Oct 12, 2024, 04:49 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

Making chicken in the air fryer. There’s nobody to do anything with today.

Going out to lunch tomorrow. It’s N1s birthday!

Nammu · Oct 12, 2024, 04:56 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

Going out to lunch tomorrow. It’s N1s birthday!

It’s my grandson’s birthday tomorrow too.

Moose72 · Oct 12, 2024, 05:32 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

It’s my grandson’s birthday tomorrow too.

Cool!!!!

JaneOnceMore · 08:29 PM

Gotta celebrate the small victories. I had an upset stomach. I had a disappointment and i headed for the Coke Zero which i use to cheer myself up. I have a terrible Coke Zero habit, which i have tried and failed to quit many times. I got out a glass, took out the bottle, unscrewed the cap... and just thought, NO, this will make my stomach upset worse and put it back! I've abstained for six hours now, except for camomile tea -- it smells so nice and is so healthy. Hopefully i can make more decisions like this from now on. We certainly have the weather for hot tea. Cold pop just makes my chill worse. Yay Jane!

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