Bipolar Check-in #83

Victoria'smom · Yesterday at 02:42 PM

So I'm doing better, I guess. I start medication Friday. I see sucky pdoc Friday too. I go to the doctor tomorrow. My hair once again needs to be cut. I threw all my money towards my credit card to hopefully spike my credit score. We have to do the same with h credit. The broker is still fighting the housing authority to give us the apartment. So we'll know by Friday. My therapist wants to talk about me not leaving my room or the house.

Crazy Hitch · Yesterday at 02:59 PM

I’ve decided I’m going to bite the bullet and go buy a scale this morning. Our scale in our bathroom is not accurate if I go by my gps scale. I’ll try not weigh myself every day (tempting) but rather do it once a week instead. I’ve looked at a few online but they’re pricey even though they’re on special. Ughhh.

Moose72 · Yesterday at 05:58 PM

Am I depressed after mania? I made a post about it

Crazy Hitch · Yesterday at 06:23 PM

So I found a scale for $55 but they were having a special for members marked down to $20. So I quickly signed up lol.

I’m worried about my 5 year old son. Every day this week has been a struggle to get him to school. He cries every morning and says he doesn’t want to go. He says he’s being bullied. Kids are calling him ugly, poor a “sook” (someone who sulks when they don’t get their own way). Thing is I don’t know if my son is doing anything to draw attention to himself. None the less I’ve left a message with the school asking his teacher to please ring me. Hopefully we can put an end to this because it’s not nice having to drag him out the car every morning …

JaneOnceMore · Yesterday at 06:56 PM

I felt grim this afternoon but i just told myself that it's just a little mild depression and it was easier to bear. I played Scrabble most of the day. Had some good games. It's getting dark early already and there is the time change on Sunday, so it'll be even earlier. Then the election on Tuesday. I'm Canadian but our country is allied so closely with the US i am still concerned about it.

HALLIEBETH87 · Yesterday at 07:05 PM

So glad I see my t tomorrow

But at same time idk what tell anyone irl the thoughts im having

raspberrytorte · Yesterday at 07:33 PM

@JaneOnceMore

I'm so anxious about the election and what's going to happen it makes me feel nauseous. 🤢 Seriously, like I just want to puke. I'm happy we voted already so that day we can just drop our daughter off at school and pick her up and spend the rest of the day at home!

I wish we were allowed to talk about politics on here. 😔

@Crazy Hitch

Sorry to hear about your son. That really sucks. He's only five and he's already being bullied? That's really young. Poor kid. I hope you get it figured out.

JaneOnceMore · Yesterday at 08:00 PM

@raspberrytorte:

The guidelines say to "limit your discussion of politics." It doesn't say you can't mention them at all. Sorry to hear you have such anxiety re the election. I can't believe Elon Musk is supporting Trump. I thought he had more sense than that. I caught the end of Kamala Harris' speech today. I thought she did very well. She seems reasonable, well-balanced, passionate, and genuine.

Mountaindewed · Yesterday at 08:09 PM

The doctor wants me on a steroid for my cough and if I can't handle that then an antibiotic. The steroid is Presidone its not the pack of pills like before. I've been on it before and its not a great time buts it manageable. Its just this dumb phlegm that keeps clogging up my throat. I can cough some of it out but mainly its just stuck and I am doing this weird *** wheezing thing.

She claims you can't have pnemunoia or anyrhing without a fever.

raspberrytorte · Yesterday at 08:16 PM

Not sure if this whole spacing out of anti-anxiety pills, that my psychiatrist recommended, is working out for me. I was going through awful diazepam withdrawal around 6PM. Usually I take 20mg around 1PM. So I ended up taking a diazepam. Then earlier I was going through some awful seroquel withdrawal because I'm used to taking 50mg in the AM and 50mg at noon. I was shaking and wanted to rip my face off, so I ended up taking 100mg of seroquel so I'd stop shaking and felt better once that kicked in.

I don't know. My anxiety has skyrocketed because of the election on Tuesday. I'm freaking the fck out about it, and I know it's a pointless thing for me to waste my energy on. I voted. I did my part. What else can I do?

Possible trigger:

My husband and I were talking about it, and he said he's not too worried about us if a certain orange one wins or a certain group of people take over the government because we're not immigrants, but I'M worried still! The orange one hinted at mentally ill people being "dangerous". And there's still the concern about SSI and SSDI. I don't know what we would do. I'd have no choice but to find a part-time job and deal with it. I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack just writing this!

I'm hoping everything will be fine. I'm sure it will be. It's just that a certain group of followers/supporters REALLY scare me.

LadyShadow · Yesterday at 09:43 PM

Just in a state of absolute exhaustion. OMG. I told my job that I get health insurance, so I don't want to go over a certain amount of money a month - they understood. It's better, I can't give up my benefits if I am not offered full-time. But looking ahead at this week, it all feels so overwhelming. Going to my friend's daughter's baptism tomorrow night, and a full packed Halloween ahead! Going to get all dressed up as a gypsy. Will post a pic later! Then when I get home from work, I am going trick or treating with my friend and her 5 kids - lol - it should be an adventure - I plan on bringing her kids all the candy I bought, I doubt anyone will come around my neighborhood that night.

Overall - I just wish I could rest. As tired as I am, it feels so hard to sleep, and I have to get up SO early these days, ugh. @Crazy Hitch - I feel your pain with the weight loss; it was such an obsession of mine too. I don't know what it is, but I have been becoming more accepting of my overall "fatness" I am still working on the blood tests and medicine with my doctor to see if my thyroid levels have finally normalized. But it's a real struggle, I totally get it - especially when the scale just REFUSES to move.

Hope everyone had a great Tuesday - I can't believe it's going to be 80 degrees here tomorrow. I really miss Fall in NYC.

Crazy Hitch · Yesterday at 09:51 PM

@LadyShadow you’re right it is a kind of obsession. I jumped on the scale once today when I unboxed my scale and I’m holding myself back from jumping on it again today lol

Nammu · Yesterday at 09:57 PM

It was eighty here today, so not normal for this time of year.

As for the election anxiety I’m trying to focus on Halloween first and I ignore news of it all for the most part. I do watch late night tv and they do joke about it, it does make it somewhat easier to read. Tuesday I don’t intend to turn tv on at all. I have my hopefully last dental appointment then I’m reading a book all day and gonna play 500 that night.

June08 · Yesterday at 10:30 PM

Today's weather was perfect where I live! I had a lovely walk outside today and am looking forward to more walks throughout the week. A lot of students are starting to wear sweatshirts which means there will be less uniform violations because they can hide their untucked shirt under their sweatshirt.

For the second day in a row, I've had something trigger a stress response in me. Today's thing wasn't at work at least. It's such a weird spot I'm in: I don't like/want the emotional stress I have, but also don't want to do the counseling work to get rid of it because feeling what I would need to feel would be to much and a history of trauma has me not trusting the possibility of things getting okay and staying okay. I've definitely got some despair going on and I just don't know how to let go of it because it doesn't feel emotionally safe to do so. Emotions are so weird.

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Crazy Hitch ɘvlovƎ Member Since Nov 2013 Location: Australia Posts: 18,928 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.5k hugs given	Yesterday at 02:59 PM #742 I’ve decided I’m going to bite the bullet and go buy a scale this morning. Our scale in our bathroom is not accurate if I go by my gps scale. I’ll try not weigh myself every day (tempting) but rather do it once a week instead. I’ve looked at a few online but they’re pricey even though they’re on special. Ughhh.
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HALLIEBETH87 Legendary Member Since Oct 2004 Location: usa Posts: 11,567 20 2,808 hugs given	Yesterday at 07:05 PM #746 So glad I see my t tomorrow But at same time idk what tell anyone irl the thoughts im having __________________ schizoaffective bipolar type PTSD generalized anxiety d/o haldol, prazosin, risperdal and prn klonopin and helpful cogentin
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Crazy Hitch ɘvlovƎ Member Since Nov 2013 Location: Australia Posts: 18,928 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.5k hugs given	Yesterday at 09:51 PM #752 @LadyShadow you’re right it is a kind of obsession. I jumped on the scale once today when I unboxed my scale and I’m holding myself back from jumping on it again today lol
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