Home Menu

Menu


Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
  #76  
Old Oct 24, 2024, 02:05 AM
Victoria'smom's Avatar
Victoria'smom Victoria'smom is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Apr 2012
Location: Earth
Posts: 15,936
So no Christmas for us. If I take Nov and Dec money (all of it) I can pay off my credit card and close it.We'll be scrapping for food but my credit score will go up 10-50 points or plummet to 0. If I can become an au on someone's card then it'll go up more.

Maybe when v moves out we can find a 1 bedroom ada unit. Honestly I don't think there's a way to get my score high enough for apartments. She's going to have the same problem but we won't know until she moves out. I'm hoping we can figure something out tomorrow. This poverty stuff sucks.

I can't wake h up for another 6 hours. I'm hoping someone gets back to me in 5 hours, then I can wake him up sooner. We're trying to figure out a way when they most likely have someone else lined up and approved already.

I'm just done with this whole credit thing. If I still had a 0 they probably would not have denied me.
__________________
Dx:
Me- SzA
Husband- Bipolar 1
Daughter- mood disorder+


Comfortable broken and happy

"So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk
My blog
Hugs from:
raspberrytorte

advertisement
  #77  
Old Oct 24, 2024, 07:37 AM
Victoria'smom's Avatar
Victoria'smom Victoria'smom is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Apr 2012
Location: Earth
Posts: 15,936
So nothing like calling a credit card at 2 am proves your not manic. The brokerage lady has been super nice. I wrote her a letter at 6 am about the 4 options I see possible. She's already wrote back saying she has some ideas too that she will call later about.

She's going to have them run my credit again because fixing all the stuff with the account made my score go up 100 pts. And my bill go down by $100. If by some miracle we can move in to this place then I would like to get her a huge e gift card.

So if we do get the place we will have a December move in date. If we get approval from the complex then we have to get them to take our moving assistance. I have to put in a reasonable accomodation to rent 2 places at once because only my husband can pack and move and we don't own a car. We may have to port out of the city. Plus v and I need state IDs to sign the lease. Then there's transferring utilities and things like that.

So this is only step 2 out of a million steps and so much more can go wrong between. But if we get this place they have to accept section 8 for the next 30 years because of the type of grant they obtained to build the property.

If we get this place we will stop all our plans for the future and focus on getting the resources needed like a PCA, extra EBT, another service dog when this one passes. If we do not get in I'm no longer applying for things daily, I will restart school and work on helping my sister remodel her mother in law suite, I will not get a replacement service dog, and will no longer put our reasonable accomodations through. Basically a lot rides on this about how our future will be.
__________________
Dx:
Me- SzA
Husband- Bipolar 1
Daughter- mood disorder+


Comfortable broken and happy

"So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk
My blog
Hugs from:
raspberrytorte
  #78  
Old Oct 24, 2024, 08:44 AM
raspberrytorte's Avatar
raspberrytorte raspberrytorte is online now
Insert Smiley Face
 
Member Since: Mar 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 6,666
I hope everything works out. 😊
__________________
The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous

The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token

"What if I can't get up and stand tall,
What if the diamond days are all gone, and
Who will I be when the Empire falls?
Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten." 😢 - sleep token
  #79  
Old Oct 24, 2024, 02:03 PM
Victoria'smom's Avatar
Victoria'smom Victoria'smom is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Apr 2012
Location: Earth
Posts: 15,936
I feel I barely avoided the hospital even though she really, really wanted me to go. I have the crises unit number. She's pissed at pdoc. And had no idea things were "this" bad and have been this bad since we met. She's worried with the voices and the imaging that I'll get tired and it'll ruin my mood
Possible trigger:
. She didn't fire me. She looked up the psychosis clinic and I'm worried she's going to call and recommend me. It's weird she's concerned because I don't want access to medication.
Possible trigger:
she had me call to transfer pdocs right after getting off the phone with her. We had a bit of an argument over my needs vs making people do there job or inconveniencing others. I feel horrible that I stressed her out when I don't see it as a big deal because I'm not impulsive or lack control. I think she'll argue that last one. She doesn't care if I break my art supplies she wants me coloring, blaring uptempo music, dancing, anything to keep my mood up. I didn't tell her getting high makes it worse. I gave her like a 65% picture she kept saying she wanted the whole picture but I was scared. Like if she knew I was getting high and why would that push her over the edge of me needing services? Because can I really not be impulsive while high. I did tell her I didn't want therapy or meds because of paranoia and my fear of being locked up. I think she's going to work on that fear later. I told her about Anna she doesn't like that I'm interacting with her. I didn't tell her I had a whole hour long out loud argument with her about it not being my fault. Where I was crying and yelling. I did tell her I wouldn't call the crises number but gave it to my husband. We're going to have to work on identifying what a crisis is. She didn't agree on a scale that from stable to crisis where I am at.

She's so going to call the psychosis clinic and making sure I get in.
__________________
Dx:
Me- SzA
Husband- Bipolar 1
Daughter- mood disorder+


Comfortable broken and happy

"So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk
My blog
Hugs from:
raspberrytorte
  #80  
Old Oct 24, 2024, 05:30 PM
Victoria'smom's Avatar
Victoria'smom Victoria'smom is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Apr 2012
Location: Earth
Posts: 15,936
So I emailed the mh urgent care to see if they can give long acting antipsychotic injection.
__________________
Dx:
Me- SzA
Husband- Bipolar 1
Daughter- mood disorder+


Comfortable broken and happy

"So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk
My blog
Hugs from:
raspberrytorte
  #81  
Old Oct 25, 2024, 02:13 AM
BeyondtheRainbow's Avatar
BeyondtheRainbow BeyondtheRainbow is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Apr 2015
Location: US
Posts: 10,210
It sounds like you did a great job explaining everything to her. That had to have been hard I'm so glad you felt safe enough to do that and that you are getting the help you desperately need. Do you see her again next week?
__________________
Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD.
Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily
  #82  
Old Oct 25, 2024, 05:17 AM
Victoria'smom's Avatar
Victoria'smom Victoria'smom is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Apr 2012
Location: Earth
Posts: 15,936
She's calling Monday for a checkup then our regular Thursday meeting. She really wants me on medication before the week is up. I wasn't able to explain well why I don't want the medicine.
__________________
Dx:
Me- SzA
Husband- Bipolar 1
Daughter- mood disorder+


Comfortable broken and happy

"So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk
My blog
  #83  
Old Oct 25, 2024, 11:23 AM
Victoria'smom's Avatar
Victoria'smom Victoria'smom is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Apr 2012
Location: Earth
Posts: 15,936
I feel bad I worried her she called and wants a session Monday.
__________________
Dx:
Me- SzA
Husband- Bipolar 1
Daughter- mood disorder+


Comfortable broken and happy

"So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk
My blog
  #84  
Old Oct 25, 2024, 02:31 PM
Victoria'smom's Avatar
Victoria'smom Victoria'smom is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Apr 2012
Location: Earth
Posts: 15,936
So I made an appointment with my PCP about a breakout on Wednesday. I'm probably not going to be on medication that time.
__________________
Dx:
Me- SzA
Husband- Bipolar 1
Daughter- mood disorder+


Comfortable broken and happy

"So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk
My blog
  #85  
Old Oct 25, 2024, 03:51 PM
Victoria'smom's Avatar
Victoria'smom Victoria'smom is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Apr 2012
Location: Earth
Posts: 15,936
So I won't know if my referral was accepted until at least Wednesday for the psychosis clinic.
__________________
Dx:
Me- SzA
Husband- Bipolar 1
Daughter- mood disorder+


Comfortable broken and happy

"So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk
My blog
Hugs from:
Moose72, raspberrytorte
Reply
Views: 5658




Similar Threads
Thread Thread Starter Forum Replies Last Post
why cant I print a thread with meds info since I am considering meds change? luvyrself Community Feedback & Technical Support 3 Apr 15, 2019 02:16 PM
Trazodone & Combining meds +Anxiety worsened by sedating meds kkrrhh Psychiatric Medications 7 Aug 31, 2017 01:28 AM
Taking meds for side effects from other meds Lola5 Psychiatric Medications 10 Jun 24, 2017 08:50 PM
Have your psych meds caused you to have high blood pressure & if so, do meds help it? Anonymous200325 Psychiatric Medications 7 May 09, 2015 03:47 AM
Meds that decrease symptoms and meds that increase them? Happy Camper OCD and Trichotillomania 2 Mar 25, 2015 09:50 PM


All times are GMT -5. The time now is 01:29 AM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.




 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.