Bipolar Check-in #84

I had a nice power walk this morning and stopped at the park to do the outdoor ab machines and the arm tension weights. I will probably be sore from that tomorrow. I have a dentist appt. this afternoon that I am not looking forward to. A week ago, I had a tooth break off at an old amalgam filling. I hope I do not need a crown or another root canal; I have already had both this year! They are so expensive, and it's already been expensive taking Sugarberry to the vet for his initial appt (and him having to get pain & antibiotic shots); he is going to the vet this week to get his yearly shots and get neutered. I am anxious about that; hoping all goes well. So that will be another big expense, and I have to buy Revolution for all 4 cats for flea, tick, lice prevention, and a pack of 6 is around $130!

Then my daughter's birthday & Christmas comes up; I have 5 nieces & nephews to buy gifts for, ugh!

Edited:
Yep, I was so right, my period started today, 4 days early even. I HATE when it's early!

I'm very anxious. I got a text this morning from my mom. She had to call 911 for an ambulance for my grandmother. She was having trouble breathing and her legs were swelling. My grandmother is 91 years old, so every little thing is not minor. I was basically raised by my grandparents before I started school, so it's hard on me with my grandmother getting older

It’s the Vraylar giving me liver issues. My primary dr is going to contact my liver doctor and so is my Pdoc. And I just picked up the 60 100 gabapentin so I can take two a day. Pharmacist said if I get the same side effects at this dose to “just push through”! I am NOT going to do that when I’m dizzy and feel faint- especially while driving! My Pdoc is going to contact my liver doctor too- she said if my liver enzymes stay this high it could cause cirrhosis/scarring of my liver! This is all very complicated and when I tried to explain it to my mom she said “Why do you need to be on these drugs at all.”!!! They’re the last two I can take per Pdoc and I feel like the only one who understands is my primary! My primary saw me on Saturday and called me on SUNDAY! She is worried! I’ve known her for 27 years so I trust her judgement!

ECT…. My primary doctor says it’s not a big deal and she has two patients on it now and they are doing very well. My biggest worry is who would drive me as my mother just thinks I should do x y and z instead of take medication! I can’t imagine her reaction to ECT. I guess I’m ok with it. I will have to have a more in depth conversation with my Pdoc about it when I see her next week.