[Frog4Life]

I swear life has been lashing me for the last two, almost three years. I get out of one storm and here comes two more. Every time I think things are starting to go right, the rug is ripped out out from underneath me. How can I not be an emotional mess. At this point, how do I discern from situational depression and honey you are just in it depression. And then you get really good stuff happening so fast you can't blink. Is it excitement or mania. My therapist actually pointed out to me that we had to watch if I was in mania. But it was just that session. I just rattled on and on at 9,000 miles an hour, not allowing a response from her. To say the least it was a one sided conversation. Of course by the next session, life had lost it's momentum. Between finances, health, love life, family, and a barrage of other things, my life tends to stay in the crapper. All I can do is hold onto faith. My life was not made to be any sort of easy. I just wish there would be a period of rest. I just want to just be for some sort of time. I am so exhausted physically, mentally, and emotionally. I think mortality is overated.

[Yaowen]

I am so very, very sorry that you are afflicted with bipolar. It is such a heavy burden to bear; crushingly heavy. I suffer unipolar depression but I have heard that bipolar is twice as painful. Wish I knew what to say to help. My heart goes out to you!

[Fuzzybear]