Unsure of Things

I am so unsure of things, i have feelings that i am not able to control-im so down i want to SI and i am trying not to, all i want to do is sleep, one minute i want to talk to someone about what i am feeling then next minute i want everyone to leave me alone. does anyone else ever have these mixed feelings. my moods change so much i dont know how things will be the next day. it is so frustrating i feel like im not even in my body at times.

Yes. All of that. I don't even think I know what the rules of the world are any more - like all the laws of physics have changed and social rules... anything could happen at any time.

I really understand how you feel. That is exactly how I have felt many, many times. Have you had any treatment yet?

The last time I felt like that, a couple months ago, I finally went for treatment. At first I went to a Psychologist (T) and then was referred to a Psychiatrist (Pdoc). Just talking to the T was refreshing because I was finally seeing that maybe I could get some help. And the Pdoc has helped because the meds are getting me some much needed sleep and I'm less chaotic in my moods.

There is hope that you can feel better

yes you are not alone i have felt like that on and off most of my life. those moments drive me crazy. i''m finally getting help for it, it seems like a slow process but everyday that goes by is a step closeer to understanding and accumulating the tools that i need to get by. these are the timesthat i say "i don't feel good' and my loved ones usually know what that means, thank goodness

Thanks for your comments, I am really low today. Everytime I start to feel a little better someone or something knocks me back down. So I am thinking of just burying myself in a dark box . I have no friends that care about me. I hate being bipolar, can I just give it back.

Hi purplebutterfly!

Oh yes.. i share your feelings of uncertainty. Sounds to me as though you are in a "mixed episode". These can be extremely difficult to deal with, i know from experience.

Perhaps a visit to your PDoc & a med adjustment is in order. remember: you ARE NOT ALONE with these thoughts & felings!

Grace03

Grace03 thanks for your sincere comments. I am so exhausted from all of this and now the tears just want to flow but i am trying to fight (SI) I hope I can fight it off.