[kadesgirl09]

does anyone else notice differences in your memory during mani or hypomania? This is driving me nuts... I can remember what someone told me like ten minutes ago or where I put my phone or keys. My memory has only been this bad once when trying a new med to take the shaking away and I quickly got off that pill. But since I became manic last week I CAN NOT remember anything? ANYONE ELSE?

[Trippin2.0]

ME! I forget what I did or said 2 seconds ago, I lose my train of thought, it's driving me nuts! So far,this is the only aspect of my hypomania I dislike as my memory's usually impeccable!
You are n0t alone! XOXO

Like Trippin, train of thought for sure. Too all over the place. I can barely follow myself, so you can imagine what it's like for others(!) They usually get a puzzled look, thinking, "where's she gone now?". Also, not just in talking, but when I get to the point where I'm trying to do everything simultaneously, turning every 3 steps with the cascade of thoughts of yet another thing to do. Usually, I'd write lists, but that goes right out the window -- no time to stop and write them down, lol! Because I feel SO on top of things with the synapses firing so quickly, even anticipating other's moves... heck I'm thinking so fast, might as well think for others too, as they're obviously not thinking fast enough for my taste -- it's all too in-the-moment, for memory issues to be necessarily obvious to me. I'm more aware of it when I'm depressed, as my brain is in such slow motion, it's hard to put a thought together let alone remember it, even halfway through a thought. During the more normal times, memory's VERY good, so it is frustrating for sure.

So, yeah, especially in the train of thought area. But awareness of it at the time, not so much.

[kadesgirl09]

Well i am for sure all over the place right now. And I can not remember what I was doing 5 minutes ago if distracted. IT SUCKS... AND i quit drinking and smoking and I want to drink so I can sleep and smoke because my nerves are on edge. I feel like I need to crawl out of my skin. I wonder if K2 would calm my nerves and help me sleep because the alcohol just depressed me. anyways sorry for mixed thoughts and confusing messages because thats all i have up top today... remind me that this too shall pass

Originally Posted by kadesgirl09

I wonder if K2 would calm my nerves and help me sleep because the alcohol just depressed me. anyways sorry for mixed thoughts and confusing messages because thats all i have up top today... remind me that this too shall pass

K2??? Major league mountain climbing probably *would* calm your nerves. (or at least make you very very tired!) All joking aside, here is your reminder: This too shall pass.
No worries on confusing messages. They've made total sense to me anyway. And yes, alcohol *does* depress, even if we'd like better not to believe it (in mood charting, there is an undeniable connection -- and let's face it, no sense in counteracting expensive medications!) Keep us posted ok? Jumbled minds, oh yes. It's ok. Ride it out. We're here.

[sugahorse1]

Yeah - I managed to underestand your posts just fine!
But that feeling of racing thoughts is scarey and tiring.
I battle with memory too, especially in hypomanic episodes. It can be frustrating and at times scarey.
We are here for you - please try ride it out and knowit will pass. Just try not to make any rash and impulsive decisions.

[BlackPup]

depressed/stressed: non existant....
normal: patchy, great at some things others (names and words) not there since I had a drug malfunction
hypo: great at first the deteriorates quickly into a complete scatterbrain

[Special-K]

I always enjoy Innerzone's posts I really relate to them. I am so inpatient I can hardly read all the posts! Its like I get angry with myself for not reading faster. Ridiculous.

Yeah I've had some memory blanks too. I just found out I'm hypomanic, I thought I was more manic...but my therapist has helped me see that I function well & stabily & someone that is very manic would have trouble with that plus might have more trouble with the law & such.

I had a relationship when I was 19-24, I can hardly remember a thing. I have no idea...but I have pretty good short term memory. So good that when I'm conviced I remember something (even if I'm wrong) I'll fight till the bloody end that I'm right.

[laranja]

Absolutely. The further i go down the manic side of the spectrum, the worse my memory gets! its so frustrating. especially in school

[onlymedid]

Yeah, manic = too many thoughts so I don't remember from one second to the next and don't even tell me your name because right after I ask you I will not even hear it.
Depressed = Slooooow thoughts or non existent

[kadesgirl09]

Okay so when I called my doctor to tell him how I was feeling at the time, he told me to only take 20mg Prozac and 120 Geodon... Granted 1 week ago I was only 60mg Prozac. My hesitation is I DON'T WANT TO BE DEPRESSED AGAIN. Ive never really had as much depression as mania. Plus I'm really better. How?? I haven't a clue!! But this morning I just felt "better" So maybe I'll start the dosage change if I really start to get up again. I just REALLY don't want to be depressed and over medicated.