[darkpurplesecrets]

Just wondering if anyone gets to circling so rapidly that you go round and round and the ball gets bigger and bigger, until you just spiral out of control? Then, you hit bottom and you feel just awful for what you have done. At times, it is almost like I see myself as the Tazmanian Devil. And forget breathing because I cannot slow down. I hate myself when this happens and I try so hard to control it. It just seems it has been happening more and more recently, and it is driving me crazy. I do not mean to be this way. Can anyone relate to this?

cami

[RozG]

i can but hopefully not for much longer...i'm hoping meds will help sort me out.

sorry you have to got thru this tho coz i know it sucks.

*big hugs*

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((( cami )))))))))))

[trippinmickey]

Ya i do .Since I've been on meds. I drop down fast so fast I find myself holding onto the bed post all day .kind of fuuny but lucky the down times do not last long but the fall is horrorifing . But with me I know why .I wont take mood saberlizers I hate them got at 100 burns on my arms from way I was on them .I couldn't stand not to feel nothing so the pain from the burns were the only thing I could feel. But thats getting off the subject .

But i can relate why once my head starts to spin with out taking extra meds there no stopping it and going down is the only left to go .So i try to stay away from my triggers and if I have to walk away from life go to a room alone for the day or so I will its the only way to stop it but thats better then before where I fought it and it just got bigger and bigger .

[darkpurplesecrets]

Thank you all for your support. I know for me that once I get going it is like a snowball that picks up speed headin' for the tree at the bottom and when I hit, it is hard. It can be a day I stay down or longer. But sooner than not the rise always comes back. Maybe some of it is anxiety and it makes me start all over. I hope you all feel better. I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts. Love to you.

cami

[nothemama8]

you speak words of a rapid cycler I've been there done that and know it's going to happen again real soon going to be out of meds cuz don't have co-pay so I'm going to hit rock bottom HARD
Angie

[katiescarlett]

This happens to me all the time. But I have come to the realization, because I have this illness, my environment adds to my decline. My doctor has told me this several times. If you don't have a supportive environment, difficulties in marriage stuff like that you are more likely to become out of control even on medications. Sad as it is, I am in the same boat and don't know how I make it through some days.

[darkpurplesecrets]

(((((nothemama8)))))

I am so sorry. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers dear. Hitting rock bottom is not easy and not a fun place to be. I have been there and just was there. Please hold on to us and let us hold you up during this time. That is what we are here for to support one another. Know I am here for you if you ever want to talk.

darkpurplesecrets

[darkpurplesecrets]

(((((katiescrarlett)))))

I am sorry you are where I am. I understand that feeling of our environment adding to our illness. Support is important and needs to be put in place around you so it is there to pull upon when this hits. It is strong and can at any moment knock you off your feet. Thank you for sharing and I will keep you in my prayers. Thank you for your support.

darkpurplesecrets

[nothemama8]

your arms feel sooooooooo safe, will hang with ya dearheart
Angie

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((nothemama8))))

I am right here and I am not going anywhere so you are safe. You are important and loved. We care about you and how you feel. Hang on as long as you need or would like to, I will not leave you.

darkpurlesecrets