[darco]

I am not some one that runs to the doctor at the first sign of 'illness' in fact I have not been in a doctors office for 18 months now. I have always had moods - high ups very low downs thought it was just part of life. Lately it has been getting worse!! I just feel that there is something wrong. Done all the online bipolar test and I must say I have never passed a test easier! but I still wonder (or maybe just don't want to admit it). I have been brought up not to show weakness maybe that is preventing me from taking the final step and seeking professional help?

[onlymedid]

I was the same way for most of my life. It was hard, but I finally sought help because I couldn't handle all of the ups and downs as they were getting too extreme for me to deal with alone.
It was the best thing I could have done because now I am on meds and dealing with everything with a great T.
Just because you passed some online tests, you need to be properly diagnosed by a professional and if you are, then you will find out and be treated correctly.

Good luck and I am here if you need it. You can PM me anytime.



BJ

[Conquistador]

It's up to you. If you like being moody, then stay that way. As long as you can live, function, and be happy with who you are, then you are OK.

[Edahn]

You don't really have a problem unless it bothers you. The bothering IS the problem, not the moods. If you decide you are bothered, then you can seek any number of avenues to help ease your frustration, not limited to "professional" help. By that I mean reading self-help books and doing your own investigation into your psyche. Professional help is one place to turn, but even then, you need to decide what type of experienced professional you want: a psychiatrist? a psychologist? a healer? a monk? friends?

[darco]

thanks for all the advice. what i have realised is that because of the way i was brought up (not showing emotion, being strong, etc) i find it hard to admit that maybe I can not do it all be myself. Talking to friends and family is not an option somethings are just to scary, intense and violent to explain. and I just won't be able to explain my suicidal thoughts and half-assed attempts (can't even get that right without my responsible voice chipping in to spoil the fun).

no seriously i think it is time to get someone who is paid to listen to what i have to say and who i don't have to see on a daily basis and add to my embarresment. just need to get all these thoughts out my head!