[JayD]

I'm Jazmine and it all starts with my life. I don't really know how to explain it all to you, so I'll do what I can. (I'm not good with expressing myself, sorry if I confuse you). <font color="black"> </font> I was a mistake, at being born i mean. My mom never really cared about me. I know she didn't because of the way she treated me and the way she looked at me all the time. I feel that the only reason she kept me because she cares what other people think about her, and she really does. My dad wasn't around for the first nine years in my life. My mom started having children and I was babysitting around the age of six or seven. She'd work day and night everyday, and when she wasn't she would be out doing God knows what. She got married to some loser who she met in a PRISON where she worked. He was a crack head, of course, and alcholic, and a waste of matter. He tried to touch me numerous of times. I've always faught him off, one time I cut him. I told my mom one day and she didn't even believe me! What mother wouldn't take something like that seriously or even care. My mom and I have faught physically, her trying to hit me in an abusive way and me defending myself. I know my problems aren't as bad as anyone else, but I have became a person I don't even recognize anymore. I have these mixed feelings, like I'm happy and energetic one minute and the next; I'm all sad and I hold in a lot of anger. I can't hold in anymore anger because it all comes out in tears. What's wrong with me? I don't know what's happening to me, but I refuse to let my life fall apart though.

[iamtwilight]

(((Jazmine))) - safe hugs if ok.

FIrst of all, there is a chance you might be bipolar. A traumatic past does contribute to that...

Can you go see a doctor or a therapist? Are you seeing one now? Please tell about this as soon as possible - it's important to recognize bipolar early so you can get the proper treatment.

Best of luck,

Katie

[Clandestine]

I'm sorry to hear about what you went through. It's painful.
Well, do you have a diagnosis already? Or you're at this point of your life where you need help 'cause you don't know what to do anymore?

Hang in there.

<font color="purple">Clandestine</font>

[MyBestKids2]

Welcome to PC JayD

I'm so sorry for all you've been through. Glad that you are here seeking support, there's alot here. Have you consulted a psychiatrist or therapist yet regarding your moods? We can offer you all the support and opinions you need, but only they can diagnose any condition you may have.

Please take care,

Dee