[Schatje]

Ok, I know you aren’t supposed to, but for the last 5 years I’ve been taking tranquilizers that were not prescribed to me. I got a handful from a family member and I’ve been taking them or my husband has been forcing me to take them when my anxiety and racing thoughts get too extreme. In total I think I’ve done it about 10 times only, but if I had an unlimited supply I would have probably taken them at least 25 times in the last 5 years. This started when I had really crappy insurance and my options were limited. I would like to ask my pdoc for a scrip, but I’m not sure how to ask. I need something to help calm me down when my mind is racing and my anxiety is through the roof. Right now the stress is really high and I kind of freaked out last night and I had nothing to knock me back down. I don’t want him to think I’m a drug seeker.

[MyBestKids2]

Hi Schatje

Have you spoken to your doctor about the symptoms you are having? Perhaps if he/she could understand how you are feeling, they would be able to diagnose and write any scripts if they felt necessary. I always find it helpful to keep a log/journal of emotional states, dates, and such. Then take it to your next doctors appointment. Wish ya luck and keep us updated!

Take care,
Dee

[sunrise]

Schatje, since you already have a pdoc, can you share your anxiety symptoms with him and see what he suggests? If you are seeing the pdoc for other symptoms, it really is important that you also tell him about your anxiety symptoms, because that could help guide what meds he prescribes for your other symptoms too. For example, if you are also depressed, depression+anxiety may call for a different anti-depressant than depression with no anxiety. So yes, definitely tell your pdoc about your anxiety symptoms!
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I don’t want him to think I’m a drug seeker.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">I think reporting your symptoms to him will not make him think you are a drug seeker. This is quite different from demanding drugs.

Good luck.

[Schatje]

Actually the doc does know I have anxiety and I'm on Effexor for it and have been doing quite well, but I want something for the freak-outs that happen occasionally. He isn't big on handing out too many meds.

We are going to be moving, I am uprooting my kids, I'm building a house, I'm dealing with tight money because of everything, and when I'm under a lot of stress occasionally I freak out. I feel terrible that my 6 year old will be moving schools, losing all his friends, will have to pack up some of his toys for storage, and share a room with his 9 month old brother. He doesn't seem very concerned and I know that realistically it is no big deal, but I already moved him away from friends last year because we sold our house. This new place is only about a mile from the new house compared to the 20 miles away we are now, the utilities will be cheaper, we will save on gas, and my son won't have to transfer to a new school in the middle of the year.

This move happened suddenly and I suddenly started to hyperventilate and began sobbing uncontrollably and couldn't focus and my mind was racing and that little voice inside me was screaming that I was a bad mother and all I wanted was to beat it out of my head. So yeah, I had a bit of freak out because of it and my husband went to get me a Valium and there was only 1/2 a pill left. Maybe if I take my husband with me to help back me up it will help me feel better about it.

The meds help stabilize my moods and anxiety, but it is almost like when things get extreme there is still a bit of bleed through that the meds I’m on can’t address. The episode the other night was like when I’m crashing after being hypomanic and having an anxiety attack at the same time, but I never experienced the hypomania.