[NuckingFutz]

I've been rapid cycling on and off for about a month now. Last night I figured out why (aside from my Lithium level being a bit low). I'm dealing with my most intense triggers at the same time (abandonment issues and molestation). Somehow both got intertwined in this stupid lawsuit my neighbor has sopenoed me for.

Now that I know what is triggering me, it seems to help me cope better.

I couldn't reach any of my "crisis" people last night so I called a hotline which helped.

I've never had rapid cycling before like this...crying jags, manic cleaning, naps in the afternoon, not sleeping at night, chasing after some loser I never liked in the first place as though I was madly in love with him. He's a jerk and I'm not talking to him anymore. It's still hard not to reach out (that's also the manic part).

You know, I would actually consider going into the hospital if I didn't have this family reunion coming up (it means the world to me). I'll see how I feel after I come home.

I really feel like a mess and am doing just the bare minimum until my trip. I'm planning on doing things that make me feel better (bubble baths, naps, herbal tea, watch a movie or two). Nothing heavy or too involved.

Normally, I'm pretty even keeled on my meds...people come to me and have noted how calm, balanced, sane, helpful and creative I am. Right now I feel like a wad of jelly. Sometimes I actually have to think of what my pets names are.

Has anyone else felt like this? If so, what has helped you get back on track?

[Schatje]

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling so bad right now.

I do cycle a lot & have to have my meds adjusted frequently. I think maybe check in with your meds provider.--Suzy

[MyBestKids2]

Hi NuckingFutz

Definitely agreeing with Suzy5654. Call your Pdoc and let him/her know how your cycling has become more rapid. I had the same problem several years ago, and they were able to get me on the right track with the proper meds.

Good luck and keep us updated!


Dee

[jbug]

Originally Posted by NuckingFutz

Sometimes I actually have to think of what my pets names are.

Has anyone else felt like this? If so, what has helped you get back on track?

I so very much understand this symptom. I hate when this happens, although it's usually my name, age and things like that I forget. I do occasionally try to call my cat's name by my mom's cats name or my old cat's name.

I agree with those that say call your prescribing doc and let them know what is going on.

Also I commend you that you realize that the added stressors in your life are contributing to your cycling. You are also doing some of the things my T tells me to do like the bubble baths, watching movies and the distracting things you are doing.

I am proud of you for these things.

Jbug