Mania and regrets

Never posted in this forum before. Yesterday for some reason I was very "up"; loads of energy, found humor in everything and felt literally on top of the world. Not the first time I've felt like this, just the first time in a while. Also no diagnosis of bipolar as I haven't told my t about it and the one time I mentioned it he said, "we'll see". Anyway, I have to bore you with a description of my bathroom in order to know what I did. My house is very very old and the people that I bought it from never did things "right"--they rigged them as best they could to get by. That includes the bathroom. The bathtub has the tub surround panels you can buy and apply with adhesive--halfway up the wall. The other half is----wallpaper. In the shower. So of course it has started to peel and looks horrible and the panel has started to pull away from the wall and it just is awful. So yesterday I went to Menards to get some adhesive to glue it back on until I can afford to replace it and some caulk. Didn't even have a thought about how to fix the wallpaper yet, but wanted to get the panel up. I also got rust remover to remove the rust water stains from the faucet. So I got the panel glued and nailed back up. Then I started looking and thought, "hmm, I'll just take this wall paper down" and I did--all 5 layers!!! There's still 1 layer up!!!! Anyway, I was just tearing it down left and right, happy as can be. Caulked what needed caulked, though it's not a pretty job at all. Put the shower curtain back up, looked at what I had done and started bawling. It is horrible. There are areas where there is still some of one of the various layers of wallpaper so there are all different colors, the caulk looks like a 5 year old did it. I have nothing to put up so the wall is close to being drywall--in a SHOWER!! I can't believe I did that!! I am really freaking out now. Not only because my shower is horrible and such, but because I just did it and didn't even think!!

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Mania can be good as far as workwise but it always comes crashing down, I was manic the day i emailed you back im sure you could tell- i had to clean my house and everything in it.

The good part is my bathtub is clean, I have a new shower curtain (I ruined mine because I thought I can just toss this in the washer with some rust remover and found I didn't own enough glue to piece it back together!!!) It's the crash and regret that scares me, and the silly thing is I've done other things I should regret more, but this really bothers me.

the mania-it's got a mind of it's own. it's not your fault. sadly i've made some serious mistakes while manic regarding investments in the past and lost a lot of money that didn't need to be lost. when i'm manic i sometimes don't know it and have misguided judgement. it sounds like that's what happened to you. try not to beat yourself up about it. be kind to yourself. know you are a good person with a challenge of mania sometimes. the bathroom still stands. there are solutions once you feel better. hugs.. you can paint over the drywall, wall paper and all. you can recaulk those areas.
oh forgot, run all this by your T...if you are bipolar meds can get this mania in check.

Thank you for the calming breath of fresh air. You are right--at least I didn't destroy the whole shower!