[neri]

See if i can stay put long enough to write this...

Maybe the question itself is pointless, I mean how would it possibly help if someone here anylyzes me? Maybe i should altogether stop categorizing my crazyness and just say I'm nuts?

LOL off my own topic

Well i have these "moments" of varied duration that I'm sort of on top of the world I don't really remember them when I'm down, seems like the deeper the pit the higher the... hill?

Anywayyyys... yay!

swing swing

[sqrlb8]

Hi Neriz. Well, you sure describe what is the essence of BP alright. But as you say, what does it really mean to be dx'd by a card carrying mental case? lol

But also it isn't a joke. Your question is a good one and I hope that my little bit of feed back here at least emboldens you that little bit more to seek out the "pros."

[nothemama8]

I'm a rapid cycler myself and boy can that be have ya been dx by Dr.
Angie

[neri]

haa! i didn't believe anyone would respond to my post (cuz lets face it there's not much to respond to )

focus focus focus... (i was thinking about yelling "i'm a dancing chili " lol and now i did)

err.. what was i supposed to say was, no i haven't been diagnosed with anything, mostly because i have never gone to doctor u know, when i'm down i don't want to, when i'm up i don't need to... same old same old though it would be nice to stop spreading money around! i don't even remember all this stuff, i mentioned it in chatroom before but i have apparently joined this animal rights sort of thing.. i just got their magazine and stuff today and wondered what the heck they were
the worst was probs the world vision sponsor thing cuz now i have to pay it every month for the next ten years! Oh well

to myself again..

hmm..

[sqrlb8]

I dunno Neriz, i'm not sure I'm quite following your thought here. Sounds like you are doing things you can't remember doing later and actually receiving and paying bills for those things? Sounds like you are having trouble thinking too? It also sounds like you still have a sense of humor about yourself, and that's a good thing....to a point.

Generally speaking it seems to me that when we wonder out loud to another person if we need help, it's because we already know that we do.

[nothemama8]

Neriz , please get an appt. , when we're up we sometimes need something to help us stablize, helps us so the crash isn't so bad
Angie

Definately agree with sqrl and angie. Please see a dr. There are some meds out there that can settle you down. Do you ever have times when you're just... well cool or level for lack of better words?

Ryan

[neri]

em.. u mean something in between up and down? I'm numb sometimes (or even cold, i might be a little mean then, sorry) if that counts. But never like... "normal".
At least i don't remember
i like being up though, most parts of it. Rather that than this... i get so much done and everything.
i don't really even think i am bipolar though, i mean, why would i be?

[nothemama8]

could be because your in an up swing sweetie
Angie

you ever have trouble focusing when you're up? like your mind is the auto bon and the cars racing past are all individual thoughts?

Ryan

[neri]

not up anymore actually...

[neri]

well, yah. i had trouble writing those posts for example, got bored with the subject before i was finished with it. I get that way in real life too, like when talking with my sister, i might start saying something, get bored in the middle of it but anxiously finish my sentence, and then when my sister responds i just get irritated and snap at her but the craziness in that just makes me laugh so she doesn't take it badly..
That's not what u meant though, right? I don't really remember my thinkings, except my "great" ideas which i now have to pay for

but anyway, i meant to say i can never really focus... not for long at least

Have you made an appointment yet to see a pdoc or a tdoc? Sounds like it might be bipolar. Maybe AHDH with depression. Hard to say since I'm not a doc. Hope you will go to a doc.

Ryan

[neri]

i wish u were a doc

oh Laura, I haven't the mind to be a doc. I can barely handle my own $hit, much less others stuff. But I can always listen if you need me to. Much love.

Ryan