[cfh1167]

Not even 20 seconds ago, I was fine. I was reading up on Bipolar Disorder. About a year and a hlaf ago I was diagnosed as a Manic Depressive. Right now I think I'm expiriencing a low.

I went to talk to my teacher about it and he joked, he mocked, as he usually does. But I was serious as a heart attack and now I simply feel like screaming or throwing a chair across the room or something.

I told him I had Bipolar Disorder, that it was something I couldn't help.
He made a joke to say I could help cutting myself and so on. That wasn't the point I was getting across.

I don't know. My psychologist threw the idea of putting me on medication into the air but I don't know.

[Michah]

Originally Posted by cfh1167

Not even 20 seconds ago, I was fine. I was reading up on Bipolar Disorder. About a year and a hlaf ago I was diagnosed as a Manic Depressive. Right now I think I'm expiriencing a low.

I went to talk to my teacher about it and he joked, he mocked, as he usually does. But I was serious as a heart attack and now I simply feel like screaming or throwing a chair across the room or something.

I told him I had Bipolar Disorder, that it was something I couldn't help.
He made a joke to say I could help cutting myself and so on. That wasn't the point I was getting across.

I don't know. My psychologist threw the idea of putting me on medication into the air but I don't know.

Forgive the masses babe, for they do not understand........

Your psychologist sounds like they are onto something........your priority is your safety.......you must do all that you can to achieve this.

As you know, bipolar does not give much room for consideration.........it is an unpredictable, dangerous, terrifying mistress.......

You need some help to navigate you through the stormy sea........not many of us can do it alone as the skills to sail a boat through treacherous waters are acquired........we are not necessarily born with it.

Navigation through bipolar requires the same learning and diligence.......you CAN do it.

In stillness.........and be safe

[cfh1167]

Originally Posted by Michah

Forgive the masses babe, for they do not understand........

Your psychologist sounds like they are onto something........your priority is your safety.......you must do all that you can to achieve this.

As you know, bipolar does not give much room for consideration.........it is an unpredictable, dangerous, terrifying mistress.......

You need some help to navigate you through the stormy sea........not many of us can do it alone as the skills to sail a boat through treacherous waters are acquired........we are not necessarily born with it.

Navigation through bipolar requires the same learning and diligence.......you CAN do it.

In stillness.........and be safe

Alright. I understand. It is to be so expected though.

It is hard to keep a balance by myself, even with all the confidence. When we are 'in the moment', no one thinks of "The steps to take" or deep breathing. For those who do and navigate through the termoil, then praise be to them for being able to do so. And one day I hope to achieve the same control.

[Michah]

Originally Posted by cfh1167

Alright. I understand. It is to be so expected though.

It is hard to keep a balance by myself, even with all the confidence. When we are 'in the moment', no one thinks of "The steps to take" or deep breathing. For those who do and navigate through the termoil, then praise be to them for being able to do so. And one day I hope to achieve the same control.

It is to be expected........and you are doing better than you think.

And no.......after 15 years I still struggle at times with breathing and taking the right steps........but I am aware of the times to ask for help......and that is the path of understanding......

Control is not understanding........accepting ones vulnerability and strength combined is a less conflicting and a more peaceful path than having "control"........afterall, do we ever have complete control?

Ask for help when needed, love yourself unconditionally, and be ultimately forgiving of yourself.........then you shall breathe more easily.

We are with you.........