You know you're borderline when...

Omers, you are making my day.

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You know you are a boarderline when you have to clarify which youtube freak you are.

you consider posting suicidal intent on face book but your pretty sure no one will even notice then when you do your even more depressed when no one does notice then you go spiraling down into your deep dark empty soul. Then you get mad at everyone because you don't matter and know one cares. not even your family.

Then I realize I didn't accept any friend requests from family because I didn't want them knowing all my s***. But stay pissed that they couldn't figure it out anyway when /i didn't friend them.

Omers, u are HILARIOUS!!!!!! that is the story of my life, violent (in my eyes) reactions of hatred towards people who don't talk to me about certain things, only to find out that at some delusional raging point I told them to NEVER say anything about that subject to me again!!!!!! and then I hate them even more for not asking me anyway.....I still hate them!!!!! It makes me crazy!! I think I really have gone over the edge..........whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and this blizzard is making me feel completely cuckoo....and freaked OUT!!!!!

Omers, whatever do u mean????? should Iknow this??

I thought it was just me who has done that...I'm on number 3

OMG Sophia Flying (totally OT until I can come up with some cretive way to make it fit) you are from the catskills??? I used to live up that way (at least I think I did??? East Durham). OK, those were some of the worst times of my life. Although I was surrounded by the awsome beauty of nature. But not as good as the adirondak years... I hate you! can I come visit?

I only let relatives I hate visit me. Friends I hate, I go to see at their house--so I can leave before they realize how much I hate them. But we make plans to have coffee tomorrow.

When you tell a friend you don't want to talk to them again and then you're in a rage when they actually don't.

lolololol

You invite insanity to play cards with you and get angry when you lose.

When you tell your T about this thread and "just for clarification" she asks if it is because you are BPD or because you fit in better with BPD's.

OK, true story... it was an odd therapy session today!

Sounds good to me!

You think that BPD for Dummies should be incorporated into the Bible.

And your answer, my dear, was......what?

And then you realize, who needs a Bible! You have BPD for DUMMIES!

I think it might be... look under the book of job.
But... it has been a while since I read that one so I might be off

FU-NEEEE! Lots of that OT stuff fits....an eye for an eye, bucko!

You think you look ok, and you let yourself feel good about interacting with others in public. Then you go home and worry and cry about everything you said and did and look in the mirror and think you are hideous and swear you will never leave your house again. Repeat.

Or, you start to be yourself around family members you have formerly been quiet in front of. You even let your guard down a little, and think hey- maybe I am likable and they don't think I am a basket case.
Then you put your foot in your mouth and impulsively say something you think could be taken wrong. So you shut up and try to hold back the tears.

You go home and send a text or email, trying to act like everything is good so they won't catch on to the fact that you are thinking way too much about all of this.

Then you read what you sent and it freaks you out and you can't stop thinking about it. You cry and get in a fight with your husband who just doesn't understand. You send another text. When she doesn't respond right away you figure she is calling someone else and telling them you are crazy. So you swear not to have contact with her ever again. Repeat.

Hi, again, story of my life........so Ive become a hermit, that is still hard, b/c people do expect to see me.........which causes the above to repeat repeat repeat until I am feeling guilty, insane, and suicidal.....I hate BPD

Omers, um, u r scaring me.......

Hayward: exactly so.

Or, you read a post that makes you feel attacked, so you feel like ****, so you get angry, so you post a reply that takes you an hour to write because the first time you wrote it, you were so mad all you wanted to do was blast take them down, but then you realized everyone would think you were overreacting (even though it was justified...wasn't it?....?), so you rewrite it to try to explain why you think they are doing a good thing in trying to find answers, but then you feel like you're just trampling all over yourself with them, so you wind up again for another swing, trying not to hold the punch, but then you feel sorry for them because they really are hurting, so you try to be really careful in your reply so that they understand why you feel like YOU are THEIR victim (cause they're standing in your own living room telling you how bad you are), then you rewrite the whole thing, and end up saying most of what you already wrote an hour ago, and you hate yourself for wasting all this f-ing time!