You know you're borderline when...

when you suggest to your boyfriend to get the phone service that you get due to your phone works great and it is cheap-- He decides to get a different phone than your, which is fine--- it is just this phone he picked out, does not work as well as your phone.. you want to give him your phone so he has a working phone, you want to buy him a newer phone, it is all your fault that , that damn phone he bought with your server provided, does not work...... even though you suggested him to exchange it with in the first thirty days and he did not-- it is still your fault- and need to fix it!

That is me right now.

YKYB when you take the lack of response to the mention of your severe health problems as a big fat "I don't care."

lovebridsflying Hope that your health problems start to get better

When you ####ing hate your last three ####ing therapists.

When you are on your 5th psychiatrist in 5 years, and you are afraid to fire this one because obviously since you have BPD, all of the pdoc issues are your own fault!

You know you are a borderline when yes I do see my mom and act like a freak the whole time; You know you are a borderline when you read all of these posts and feel even more depressed, because you know it will never go away.

...when my ex girlfriend is coming to visit...and a friendly hello....is turned into a near death experience for me...and she is'nt even here yet!

when your boyfriend/girlfriend tells you they can't take the mood swings anymore so you "change" for almost a whole day and then crash and burn because you can't figure out who you're suppost to be anymore.. why can't people accept us for who we are? oh ya, they're normal, that's why.. Ug

I don't know how to be close to people...I like them a whole lot..like an empty chair with a recent sitter upsets me when I watch it!

When yr always devoted partner is unavoidably and genuinely ill but you feel utterly abandoned

You know you're borderline when you're talking to me!

when you've PM'd someone a couple of different times and they don't get back to you, so that must mean that they don't want to put up with you or deal with you. It couldn't possibly have anything to do with them being really busy.

when you apologize for being crabby and snippy and your SO says "you weren't snippy you were b i t c h y." So you say "oh so now I'm a b i t c h. That's just great!"

when you email T saying you are just emailing to get some thoughts out and to feel that he is there. No need for him to reply...and when he doesn't you accuse him of not caring because he didn't reply. But you know that if had have replied you would have been angry at him for disregarding what you said and for trying to smother you

when you know your abandonment issues are being triggered, and knowing that doesn't make it any easier to deal with.

when you wish you could be sick again so that people would take care of you, and then when it happens, you ***** and complain that your sick again. And you just want to die over it all!

when you start looking to see if there are other online support groups for BPD and all you can find are support groups for family members or loved ones who are dealing with a borderline. So of course this royally pisses you off and then you start thinking well of course there is going to be a number of support groups for them no one can stand me. And for that matter why would anyone else want to support me. UGH!

(Not saying anything bad about PC. Just thought I'd see what else was out there for support.)

When you go for your re-entry session and she's running extremely late so you walk out without seeing her and don't make anymore appts.

Been there, done that.

Similarly, when you're waiting for a bus that's running late, and give up and start walking seconds before it gets there. When it arrives, you're *just* far enough out of reach that you can't get back to the stop. Then you decide that the SOB driving it didn't want to pick you up, and was waiting for you to leave.

when your SO gets out the sizing (something to make clothes look crisp) and starts spraying in on his shirt and ironing, right after you just ironed it. You get pissed b/c obviously you did a bad job ironing b/c he's redoing it and no I don't see the difference b/t the stuff you just sprayed on it and how I ironed it. So your totally pissed off b/c you took the time to iron his shirt for a presentation he's giving tomorrow at college and you totally HATE ironing and then he goes and does it himself. So you decide you suck at ironing and for that matter you suck at everything else b/c nothing has been going right for you all day (this was last night). So you get pissy with him and start yet another fight, only to get even more upset when he tells you to quit picking fights with him. Your not the one picking the fight HE'S the one pushing your buttons! And then you wonder why he wont talk to you for the rest of the night, when all you really wanted was for him to pay some attention to you.

(I'm not dealing well w/him being in college. Oh and VERY not happy when he told me he was taking 21 credits next semester, he's taking 18 this semester. I hardly see him. The girls hardly see him when they're here on our weekends and I'm not liking feeling like a single parent on our weekends. He did say he might drop a class. I don't know why he's trying to cram everything in. He's still going to have to take a summer class and 2 more semesters. Why not spread out the credits before I lose my mind!) Thanks for letting me vent.

((Please Help)) is there any way to talk to you SO about what is pushing your buttons- I know that can be hard- but sometimes it is surprising that a SO is clueless on what may be pushing buttons-- I so see why that would be bothersom don't get me wrong- when someone re-does my stuff I am like what not good enough-- blah-- end up throwing all his shirts at him and say you f u c k ing do it then (lol).... but sometimes, some people, even close ones, don't know/aware of the whole what bothers another-- (with me it can be even forgotten with my boyfriend and I even though 3 years ago I told him it bothers me-- bless him, he is forgetful )
((Flooded))-- at least you tried right ... maybe you can find another or ask if she is going to be late to at least let you know- would you not do the same for her? That is bs for a t/doc to be late for their appointments.

((Everyone)) I hope you are doing well too-

Thanks, Beauflow.

We have talked about it. Sometimes he says he does it to make me deal with my issues, which of course pisses me off more. But I guess to a degree I understand. Right now we're both under a lot of stress and I'm trying to remember that. Also with the ironing thing, I think I need to remember that he's a former Marine and everything has to be done to perfection! I think from now on he can iron his own stuff. Its just that right now his right hand is injured and he's not suppose to be using it that much, so I was trying to be helpful. Guess that backfired.

Please Help-- that has to be hard-- a person that wants perfection is hard to please for sure- for anyone-- Since you know that and understand him on that- breath remember it is not a reflection on your job that you did-- it is his preference- geez idk if i could do that-
you are strong to understand in aways::

when people start telling you you are projecting and assuming again.

When I start acting all *****y...

who you fluctuate between depressed, bored and fine every few hours... UGH