[MDDBPDPTSD]

I can't do this! I can't take care of me & iIwant them to help me & instead they want me to help them.

I want to help them. I try to help them. I give them everything I can.

It is insufficient. I am inadequate.

I am hurting. I am angry. I am crashing. & They still need me to be there for them.

What am I going to do?

I feel me falling into myself. Battening down the hatches, deadbolting the doors. Getting ready to hang out the sign : "Go Away"

I can't do this. I am already really isolated, so people can't demand things from me. But my family, who I love, can always ask me for stuff. Even when I am not really here.

I really can't do this, y'all.

[ECHOES]

The push/pull of needing people as we all do, and at the same time not wanting to let them in. It does create a lot of inner tension and distress!!

[disguise123]

oh i understand..... Do they know that you need right now? Can u let it be known?
Life can be a struggle of balance, its ok to say no, its ok to say i cant handle this burden right now.
Better to do that than to lock others out....but i get it, the giving until one day you snap and retract from them all......do take care of yourself.

[bpd2]

I agree with rapidcycla: it's best to say what you need: that you need their help right now, that you need rest and comfort. They are your family. They should give you that, and kids are really, really good at that--and love it later, when you can pile the praise on their hard work, when they took care of you and showed it with more than a Mother's Day card, etc.