Why?

This is mostly a bit of steam releasing...

I'd like to know why is ok for other people to have a bad day but not me. Why is it ok for them to let loose but as soon as I do it's BPD behaviour and I'm just being a *****?
Why is it ok for someone to blatantly attack me and my mental issues yet hide behind there own?
And why is it ok for others to share their bad days yet if I do it's attention seeking behaviour?

Personally, I don't seek attention. I loathe it. I loathe being the centre of attention which is why we chose to elope to an island for our wedding.
I prefer to be alone because at least then no one can accuse me of "being borderline".

I'm a private person. I've shared more on pc than I ever have anywhere else. I am so tired.

I can relate to what you're saying, You let of steam all you want that is what we are here for

(((Flooded))) - can relate Idk what to say though.

I need to have a session with my tdoc. I've been avoiding her.

Who is saying it is BPD behavior?

Glad you can say what is on your mind here.

I can relate also Flooded..... Gentle hugs to you...............

My husband who is usually very supportive. I guess everyone has their limits though.
My tdoc pulls me up because she thinks I'm mostly in denial.

Thanks.

My T never labels my behavior or meltdowns or anything as BPD, was why I asked who.

I don't see what purpose it serves. Might as well call it.. jellybean behavior... Or maybe I'm missing something.

I DO call it jellybean behaviour to her

She wants me to accept that some of my behaviors are detrimental to me at times and she knows I need to be challenged on that.

I have the same gripe! If I cry it means Im severly depressed. It's like I'm not allowed to cry about anything anymore! I'm a WOMAN....WE CRY SOMETIMES!

Sharing your sorrow!

Thanks. That makes sense when you put it this way.

I don't cry very much. Can't remember the last time I did actually. I feel like it though, but just can't bring myself to let go.

I wish I wasn't so scared of crying

Hugs to Flooded. It's ok to cry. I know i get challenged on that with ppl but truly it's human nature at times just like to get angry, or sad. I do agree a bit to find the why thou i myself can't find why with it all. But crying is ok- it is. It's part of a release. I wish everyone could cry when in need of it. I would think to stuff the tears would lead to other emotions like anger inwards is depression. I wonder what unable to cry leads to. But can you ask yourself- why aren't i allowed to cry? Ie with me i can cry but alone more so, why cuz i was brought up that it's weakness showing. I don't want others to see me week. These past years i lose that grip with don't cry it's weak & cry. Some with my boyfriend it's ok cuz i'm allowing him in to see what i'm bothered with ie family. But if i cry in front of him with something he did i feel worthless- i should had kept that to myself cuz now he has amo in a way, probably more to that. But finding reasons- i have accepted it's ok to let him know of my bothersome with family. I'm learning slowly that it's ok to talk of my issues with him thus so they don't fester. Thus not making me worthless. Using self example to try th help explain what i mean. I wish you well flooded