[Fit1]

I hope this is right? That I am supposed to just start a new thread each time I want to post. I have only made one post prior to this one and am trying to figure out this site. There are so many links to get lost in, but I have to make at least 5 posts in order to interact.

I have read a few of the posts from others and can quickly see that I am not the only one living in confusion, especially regarding relationships. I have hurt each woman I have ever loved, but not without paying the consequences for my actions. Currently, I am separated from my 4th wife who divorced me and re-married me, only to be separated in less than a year and well on our way to divorce again. I love this woman like no other before her and am miserable without her. Unfortunately, it appears we are toxic to each other and our baggage is just not a matched set. We both love each other but simply are unwilling to make it work. My mood remains angry, mostly at myself, because this is the consequence I alluded to earlier. I am alone again leaving pain and misery in my wake and that only makes me hate myself even more.

I am hoping that with recently finding out about having BPD, I will learn how to control the impulsivity, and rage over the stupidest stuff will be more subdued in the future.

Fit1

[I'mNotReal]

There are so many links to get lost in, but I have to make at least 5 posts in order to interact. - lol True. I'm lost here.

I hope things get better for you... =/

[ECHOES]

You can start a new thread of your own, or you can reply to an existing thread using the "Add Reply" button at the top left and bottom left of the thread and inside the box of any post on the thread. There is also the Quick Reply box at the bottom of the page and a link to the Quick Reply inside the box of each post.

I'm sorry for your relationship troubles. It sounds like you are now working with a psychotherapist to learn more about you?

[Fit1]

Originally Posted by ECHOES

You can start a new thread of your own, or you can reply to an existing thread using the "Add Reply" button at the top left and bottom left of the thread and inside the box of any post on the thread. There is also the Quick Reply box at the bottom of the page and a link to the Quick Reply inside the box of each post.

I'm sorry for your relationship troubles. It sounds like you are now working with a psychotherapist to learn more about you?

Yea I have an appointment on the 21st. She had to cancel out last appointment in August and I have not been back. I impulsively left my family to move to another state, just to turn around and move back again. She will definitely be seeing a different Fit1 than at our previous session when I was doing fairly well.
I still could not figure out why I could not find any activity for new orientation chat last night? There are a couple of conflicting posts as to what time it actually takes place, but I did check in during both posted times and saw nothing?
Thanks,
Fit1

[sweets]

your not alone!!! I suffer from bpd as well and getting help and wanting help, things can only get better

[Fit1]

Originally Posted by sweets

your not alone!!! I suffer from bpd as well and getting help and wanting help, things can only get better

I hope your right about things getting better sweets!

Thanks,

Fit1

[ECHOES]

Originally Posted by Fit1

Yea I have an appointment on the 21st. She had to cancel out last appointment in August and I have not been back. I impulsively left my family to move to another state, just to turn around and move back again. She will definitely be seeing a different Fit1 than at our previous session when I was doing fairly well.
I still could not figure out why I could not find any activity for new orientation chat last night? There are a couple of conflicting posts as to what time it actually takes place, but I did check in during both posted times and saw nothing?
Thanks,
Fit1

I replied on your other thread. The chat was cancelled and announced in the Chat Announcements sub forum of the Community and Technical Feedback Forum: http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=204166

Good luck with your appointment on the 21st!