...sure..I had know idea this glance at this girl would make me make the most dangerous decisions ever...not the ones that make any sense anyway...

I was damaged!...I didn't know this?
I was a walking time bomb...gettin' around on some 'unknown' energy
...guess it's called "angst"...but for so long man?

I clung to this image of this girl...never forget it ..the party thing happening...late after all the ********..everyone lays back...we connected....
after that I was @$#^ed ...no going back...

but I was damaged...severely..
by my upbringing...I had no damn skills! damn it!
no-one around me loved each other!

I was no witness to good lovin'
just anger and hate!

I got dragged along the way...

she came after...but she was somehow contained...

I kept all my **** to myself...not to hurt her...
but I knew we were different just by reactions!

ya see the borderline person is well adjusted to any feeling..
or well un-adjusted..makes no difference..

I was created by bad feelings....therefore I get obsessed with the good ones and no-one can handle it

a bit whoops huh?

[mysunshine]

yeah, it's hard to give something you haven't been given yourself. Have you read Rachel Reiland's book 'get me out of here'?
It's exactly what she went through with her therapist helping her to love herself in a way she hadn't been given.
I have troubles with this too, her book has given me a lot of hope that life and relationships can be better.