Share your moments of SUCCESS in coping here! Small victories count!

I had a full day of somewhat successful DBT practice, and didn't break down once.

looked at my rage issues full in the face today.

working hard on not hating myself.

trusting my friend and my bf (now my friend).

reaching out here instead of self-destructing.

practicing my communication skills and my dbt skills that I learned on the dbt site and from Ani.

forgave a man today that I thought hurt me.

Got my test results back and I have been diagnosed as mild aspergers and some level of bipolar disorder with both together I find rather unusual. But Iam relieved to have a name to what has been going on with me and got the right diagnosis.

I will still post here as I like this forum and can relate to all of you.

forgave another man today who talked about me.

forgave my roommate who was in another one of his p***y moods.

I can't hate anymore.

I can actually say I have borderline personality disorder.

...and...I have found a place (here) I feel I 'belong.'

Good for you Billi.. sometimes it takes more energy to hate then to forgive.. it's hard but you did it twice

Worked 12 hours today (42 hours in the last four days) and haven't gotten overly anxious or depressed. Yay! Better not say it too loudly; day's not over yet.

way to go carmasia!!!

I am officially an English teacher, but didn't find a job prior to moving almost 2,600 miles. Right now, I'm scoring standardized tests online. Pays well...over $18/hr, right now they are offering overtime, and my husband hasn't gotten a job yet so I'm working my rear-end off. We moved here on pretty much a wing and a prayer and I could have said no but I had to. The memories and living within miles of the one who cursed me out and abandoned me was destroying me, and I was scared I'd eventually be too impulsive and get arrested. Mark this up as another victory I guess. It's been hard; I am largely alone here, but it's for the best.

I am proud of you carmasia. That must have been soooooo difficult for you.. Yet you did it way to go!! Feel proud of your accomplishment

Yes! Awesome, what a brave thing to do carmasia!

Here's mine for today: I started to journal my thoughts after years of not being able to do so on the advice of professionals.

I wrote a thread or two a week or two ago specifically about my abandonment problem and my move.....if anyone is interested. It was not long after I joined and before you guys did. They are long and pretty messed up. I AM getting over it, slowly but surely...but don't talk to me about it tomorrow....I think I'm doing well and then have a setback to where I don't think I'm better at all. Such is life, I guess.

I hear ya carm. I start to think i'm making some progress and then go and screw it all up in seconds.

Being able to write about some of my more f-ed up experiences on this forum without getting TOO choked up about them.

Made it through a whole day without a complete breakdown... First in a long long time

YAY SWAY! That's awesome.

I had *somewhat* effective communication with my girlfriend this morning. It didn't have remarkable results but it was better than being a walking implosion.

YAY you SC! it's these kind of steps along the way that count...

When Bruce locked himself in his room with the phone today, instead of getting mad and demanding of him what's going on or leaving him a perterbed note, saying, "Are you mad at me?" I pushed a note under his door, saying, "U Okay?" Then waited for him to come out and say yes. Then I took his answer at face value, listened to him talk about the phone call like an adult.

At my meeting, instead of storming out of the room because someone did not treat me well, I stayed and listened to him share.

Billi

also this:

I deleted my account on a personals site, instead of acting desperate.

I came on here and talked about it.

I don't want to hurt myself. I am sitting in very low emotions and not being scared of them.

You people are partly making t his possible by giving me hope.

We bpd's are survivors!

Never ever ever give up no matter how bad it is.

Billi

I actually had a great day in which nothing negative (caused by me) happened. I had two times in which I could have reacted to my emotions and didn't!

I was assertive to a meeting leader tonight.

I had one of those knee-jerk angry reactions when my husband kept delaying us at the store, but I was able to get it under control before I said something negative to him and before he noticed.

Great job carm!

I successfully used distraction yesterday to cool down and take some time before letting my emotions take over.