Ugh...have just been told that the specialist meeting id been waiting for for three months has been cancelled for no apparent reason. I feel a bit sick to be honest. I really needed that appointment. My team are so god damn useless - i wonder if they will actually ever stop screwing up. So cue an evening of really bad SI after my mother also decided to pitch in and said to me; 'well what do you expect? you are a really difficult patient is it any wonder they keep blowing you off, your lucky your still under their team.'

Ive had enough to be honest...none of this may seem like a big deal and perhaps it isn't but its when all the little things continue to go wrong that i find myself going under.

[ECHOES]

Don't let your mother's hurtful and incorrect words make you feel as if the appointment being cancelled is something personal. There is a reason for it being cancelled, but it is not something done to be personally hurtful. Something happened that required the cancellation. You don't have to react to it, even though I know it feels bad to you. You can really not like it not have to take any action at all. Maybe you could write more about it, here or in a private journal?

Hi echoes thanks for your advice - its nice to know someone cares i think im more upset with my team than anything else, they keep cancelling appointments even though i make every effort to attend and work with them as best i can. As for my mother, ive had 20 years of her near constant criticism and abuse - as bad as it sounds, im more than used to it. Your right though im just gunna have to accept that it was something outside of my control and nothing personal - thanks for your advice once again.