[Jamielow]

well im out and in my dark room wondering what the hell happened there spoken about as you weren't there what they say and do are two different thing i got the impression it's only a job to them who is real who do you trust. Medication has been up but still feeling i should end this life and no more hurt i don't want to go to hospital ever again i'd like to thank psych central and it many people who have helped as long as i have some one to talk to i know things will be ok. I'm getting used to my family break up still wish it hadn't happened hopefully i see my children in the half term cann't wait my new flat is comeing on a treat feeling indepenant more each day still think im a bad man time will tell my wife has filed for divorce and is blameing my bpd as the main reason for the break down been with her for twenty years married for the last two and i was diagnose 5 yrs ago so she new feel hurt that she is useing this against me for better or worst for richer and poorer in sickness and health til death us do part vows i didnt take lightly still miss her but feel betrayed by her we had a row and i texted some horrible thing and she showed the children now the don't want to see me why can't i keep my mouth shut hope this all ends soon in a good way

So your out of hospital? If so im glad i hate being admitted. Were you hospitalized privately or via the NHS if you don't mind me asking? Im glad your feeling more independent and your flats looking good (ive recently done mine up - its a good feeling init?) I know your still in a lot of pain and things still feel very scary, but you've made it this far and now you have an oppertunity to start afresh. Go for it - we're all rooting for you. Sending hugs (if ok)

[graygreenwoman]

Hospitalized means getting more crazy..Im sure it doesnt work for anyone

[Jamielow]

it was nhs felt like they didn't care and thank you for careing