[MrGrendel]

it feels like im teetering between functioning and not functioning. one day i feel like i can take care of all the things i need to get done. some time later i think about all the things i have to do and then it becomes overwhelming and i feel like im too weak and pathetic to get anytihng done right. and sure enough il get an ego boost from some random small thing that went right. i live at the whim of my emotional reactions and it feels like im going insane. like my life is just a bunch of unrelated events. i dont feel like my past is my own. i dont even feel like my body is my own sometimes and everyone feels so far away and im so lonely. even tho i have people in my life that love its as if they arent even there, like they dont exist. how do i get out of my head? its just circles and circles and circles....

I feel much the same way right now. I think the people already close to us can't always meet our needs for some reason or another, so we end up feeling horribly lonely. It also doesn't help when we're being buffeted by our emotions and fluctuating mental states - sometimes it feels like the whole world has rejected you. I am currently trying to make new friends in the attempt to give the people close to me a break ("You took two hours to text me - you don't love me! How can you say you're my friend??" -_-; ) and also to ease some of this suffering.

Do you think that would be of any help to you? When I get really depressed, I try to find something different and distracting to do. Sometimes it helps.

Originally Posted by MrGrendel

i live at the whim of my emotional reactions and it feels like im going insane.

Boy do i know what thats like. I posted a thread recently that was similar to yours so im not sure if ive any words of advice, im still trying to somehow navigate my way through the mire myself. It seems issues with motivation and feelings of a sort of 'disconnection' appear common among those with our disorder...

[MrGrendel]

Originally Posted by morsecoded

I feel much the same way right now. I think the people already close to us can't always meet our needs for some reason or another, so we end up feeling horribly lonely. It also doesn't help when we're being buffeted by our emotions and fluctuating mental states - sometimes it feels like the whole world has rejected you. I am currently trying to make new friends in the attempt to give the people close to me a break ("You took two hours to text me - you don't love me! How can you say you're my friend??" -_-; ) and also to ease some of this suffering.

Do you think that would be of any help to you? When I get really depressed, I try to find something different and distracting to do. Sometimes it helps.

yeah distraction seems to be my main method of coping. just sometimes, i "distract" myself too much and let life smack me in the face =/

[MrGrendel]

Originally Posted by bb2023

Boy do i know what thats like. I posted a thread recently that was similar to yours so im not sure if ive any words of advice, im still trying to somehow navigate my way through the mire myself. It seems issues with motivation and feelings of a sort of 'disconnection' appear common among those with our disorder...

what is the thread called. it would be nice to read something i can connect with

Originally Posted by MrGrendel

what is the thread called. it would be nice to read something i can connect with

My post capitalises more on the feeling of diconnection or feeling "like your not in your own skin sometimes" as you mentioned in your thread. You may not relate to everything ive said but i hope some of it brings you a sort of consolation in knowing that you're not alone. Wishing you all the best

http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=218469