Not feeling so good.

My life is falling apart. Everyone is sick of me and thinks I'm miserable to be around. No one is happy with me, no one. Even though I try so hard to be good, try so hard to make them happy. But they were only humoring me, pitying me. All while blaming me for making them drink, for making them sick, for making them crazy, for making them lose weight.

Everything I did, all the good acts and words. None of it ever mattered. All they can do is complain and tell me how I never measured up.

No one is here. Everything is a waste. I can't even feel myself because no one is left to feel me. I don't even have the words. I feel so destructive.

Meh they're arseholes. Don't stay around people who don't understand and give support. You're honestly better off without them.

I'm really sorry that your going through this. i feel the same all the time. I know what you're going through and I know it hurts. it feels like everyone is against you and nothing you do is good enough. But know things will get better. i've felt similar a lot and therapy has helped me. Are you in therapy at all?

I know you don't know me but if you ever need to talk i'm here for you. just private message me because i know what you're going through.

I'm sorry you feel this way and i hope things improve for you *hugs*

We really are in similar situations. I was also just ditched by my person. Good to know love always wins in the end, yay~ ha. They *are* against me, and how come right out to tell me that my efforts aren't good enough. Like, it's not just my warped perception. I wish it were.

I was looking for a therapist, but I kind of lost my give-a-damn. Things seem really pointless. I'm thinking that they'll confirm things I already know, plus tell me to stop feeling so much, etc.

If you'd like to talk with me, sure. Thank you for your response.

Thank you. I'm feeling quite inclined to agree with your assessment. So...where do I buy people who are understanding and supportive? Lol.

Well we're all on here for support to be honest, and we don't need buying

A good therapist won't do anything like that. If that's all they do, find another. Trust me I had been very cynical about finding a therapist and pretty much gave up til I realized I had to do something and thankfully this time around my therapist is very supportive and although part of my therapy is about emotional control she doesn't just tell me to "stop feeling so much.." Keep up the search... you'll find a good one!

Im in a bad place too right now and negative things and people are a definate no no. We are good enough at breeding negativity we dont need it from others. Weed through the crap and grab something positive however small it is and hang onto it. It may not last for long but it gets u that little bit further thru the day

Thank you for the feedback! I have a list of exactly two that meet my requirements in the area...I just have to get the chance to call during the day when I'm not dealing with some OTHER problem, LOL.

You're not kidding, chilli! Talk about ways to make the ship sink faster, haha. I can't deal with people dumping more water in! I try to make it moment to moment, day to day, by doing just that - or just locking things away. Thank you.