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#1
Jun 01, 2012, 11:10 AM
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How come I'm the last one anyone thinks about?
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 BrokenNBeautiful, Liinu
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Jun 01, 2012, 11:17 AM
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I know exactly what you feel. :/
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Jun 01, 2012, 02:52 PM
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Me too. When I was younger, I mistakenly thought that having a bf would change that, and that I'd finally be 1st! Boy did I have a rude awakening... So I decided that I make me 1st now
 (except where my daughter's concerned).
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Jun 01, 2012, 08:50 PM
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sometimes bf's make it worse by reinforcing how lonely we are. (they don't mean to always, but this how it is to me, a borderline). Like when they talk to other people and I wonder why he's with me. Or wonder if he'll find someone better for him.
Billi
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Jun 01, 2012, 10:35 PM
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I'm bad at putting me first. Me being on pc is my way of putting me first. I'm working on it. I do everything for everyone else. And feel stupid when no one repays it. Every single time. I think that's what makes me try harder.. Maybe if i just try harder and I'm a better girlfriend he will want to hang out with me instead of getting high with his friends. (wrong).
And then part of me is like hey psycho.. Why can't he have some alone time with his friends? The real answer to that is because I don't want to be left alone thinking of how pathetic me will never be the one out there hanging with my friends while he is alone. He has a bunch of friends. I definitely agree with you Billi. I don't get jealous (only did once and I that was some weird stuff.. On the other girls part not my bf) but he definitely makes me feel ten times more alone. |
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Jun 02, 2012, 12:11 AM
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Billi, that's horrible did he say that or his friends?
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Jun 02, 2012, 01:17 AM
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But I have been known to eavesdrop my bfs' conversations to see if he is talking about me. Not the current one I have, but in the past. And Bruce has told me (not my bf, but my roommate) that he wants to be around people that are more stable. I just told him, the other night, how that made me feel. I told him he had a right to have more stable friends (so do I) and that I just felt like I was on some s**t list of his when he said that. The "mental list". Billi
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Jun 02, 2012, 05:18 AM
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i also cant bare being on my own- i make myself cos i have to (other wise i will lose everybody) but i never WANT to - im hoping this feeling will get less with treatment
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