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when i'm under stress my OCD behaviors 'show their faces.'

so i begin to panic about dying, fires, drowning, anything health and safety related. this has been confirmed to be my MH professionals that its my OCD.

There's another thing that happens, which i didnt acknowledge until a moment ago.
when i'm stressed and there's no immediate danger to my health, i begin an obsession with the english language.

this comes in many forms, once i was in a psychotic depression years ago, i spent three days writing words, kinda playing word association on my own. if i start to feel like i'm failing at life i start obsessively doing spelling tests online and base my confidence in my own intelligence on the outcomes.

When i'm super stressed, like in driving lessons or at work, i start to become super focused on facts like the word symmetry is not symmetrical and it take over my mind for days and hours.

now i am writing lists of words with all five vowels, because i had a hard driving lesson. its feels like i'm searching for something with a conclusion.

does this make any sense?

is it a good way of coping with my stress levels or is it an unhealthy obsession?

[OctobersBlackRose]

Originally Posted by widgets

when i'm under stress my OCD behaviors 'show their faces.'

so i begin to panic about dying, fires, drowning, anything health and safety related. this has been confirmed to be my MH professionals that its my OCD.

There's another thing that happens, which i didnt acknowledge until a moment ago.
when i'm stressed and there's no immediate danger to my health, i begin an obsession with the english language.

this comes in many forms, once i was in a psychotic depression years ago, i spent three days writing words, kinda playing word association on my own. if i start to feel like i'm failing at life i start obsessively doing spelling tests online and base my confidence in my own intelligence on the outcomes.

When i'm super stressed, like in driving lessons or at work, i start to become super focused on facts like the word symmetry is not symmetrical and it take over my mind for days and hours.

now i am writing lists of words with all five vowels, because i had a hard driving lesson. its feels like i'm searching for something with a conclusion.

does this make any sense?

is it a good way of coping with my stress levels or is it an unhealthy obsession?

I would say if it makes you feel beter then keep it up, but if you hate doing the writing then find another way to cope.