[fourth_in_line]

Hi everyone. I've been checking out posts here for the past few weeks since I was diagnosed. I'm especially a fan of the "You know you're borderline when..." thread. It kind of indulges me after not knowing why I was "different" for most of my life. Anyway, I only decided to make a PC account today after cutting for the first time and wanting to talk about it but having nowhere to turn.

It's been one of those hopeless without any particular trigger days and I'm not sure why I did it - maybe because I read in Borderline for Dummies that I'm supposed to and I've been having trouble affirming this diagnosis in my head? Maybe it's because I overheard my parents on the phone after a recent suicide attempt saying "She'd never really do it." An hour later, I feel fine. Now I want to be productive and have a good rest of the day. Mucho mood swing, surprise, surprise. I guess that's normal.

Also, kind of confused by what's "triggering" but I'm obviously terrified of everyone getting mad at me so I thought I'd be safe with an icon. Typical, eh?
Looking forward to getting to know you all

[OctobersBlackRose]

Originally Posted by fourth_in_line

Hi everyone. I've been checking out posts here for the past few weeks since I was diagnosed. I'm especially a fan of the "You know you're borderline when..." thread. It kind of indulges me after not knowing why I was "different" for most of my life. Anyway, I only decided to make a PC account today after cutting for the first time and wanting to talk about it but having nowhere to turn.

It's been one of those hopeless without any particular trigger days and I'm not sure why I did it - maybe because I read in Borderline for Dummies that I'm supposed to and I've been having trouble affirming this diagnosis in my head? Maybe it's because I overheard my parents on the phone after a recent suicide attempt saying "She'd never really do it." An hour later, I feel fine. Now I want to be productive and have a good rest of the day. Mucho mood swing, surprise, surprise. I guess that's normal.

Also, kind of confused by what's "triggering" but I'm obviously terrified of everyone getting mad at me so I thought I'd be safe with an icon. Typical, eh?
Looking forward to getting to know you all

Hi and welcome, you're on the right thread don't worry no one is upset at you either. As for the trigger icon it is mainly used when you want to warn people of potentially upsetting content like how you mentioned suicide and what your parents said that may trigger someone, and this being a new threat it was right of you to use that icon. Now when making regular posts it is up to your own desgression on whether or not to use it. Hopefully that helps a little. Again welcome and look forward to seeing you around

[Secretum]

Yeah, it can be tricky to distinguish between genuine symptoms and the effects of being too darn educated. I have bipolar, and I sometimes wonder if some of my hypomanic symptoms came about because I expected them to be there. Add meds to the mix, and you'll have no idea where a given symptom came from!

[3little.birds]

Originally Posted by fourth_in_line

Hi everyone. I've been checking out posts here for the past few weeks since I was diagnosed. I'm especially a fan of the "You know you're borderline when..." thread. It kind of indulges me after not knowing why I was "different" for most of my life. Anyway, I only decided to make a PC account today after cutting for the first time and wanting to talk about it but having nowhere to turn.

It's been one of those hopeless without any particular trigger days and I'm not sure why I did it - maybe because I read in Borderline for Dummies that I'm supposed to and I've been having trouble affirming this diagnosis in my head? Maybe it's because I overheard my parents on the phone after a recent suicide attempt saying "She'd never really do it." An hour later, I feel fine. Now I want to be productive and have a good rest of the day. Mucho mood swing, surprise, surprise. I guess that's normal.

Also, kind of confused by what's "triggering" but I'm obviously terrified of everyone getting mad at me so I thought I'd be safe with an icon. Typical, eh?
Looking forward to getting to know you all

You know, I've thought the same thing. Im undiagnosed. Impretty positive I have bpd, maybe I'm bipolar type two too. Idk. I'm a psych major. I don't get the triggers. The only things that set me off are mostly un-guessable. I can't predict them. My boyfriend (of four years) can't either so I think he verifies that.

I mood swing like no ones business. I can be the most productive person in the world. Or I sit there feeling sorry for myself all day. I don't tend to fit in the middle of that. I'm one or the other. I'd like to say I have friends, but I don't. Idk if that's because of me, or because of other reasons. Idk.

I'm really sorry you were in a bad enough place to cut.. I hope you don't anymore. I've been contemplating it for a while, but I am too much of a whimp to do it. Guess I'm stuck here. Good luck. If you want someone to talk to I'm here, even though I probably won't help much. sorry for wasting your time here, actually.

[FacingChains]

Hi! Welcome!
I find just READING that book triggers me, or maybe it is any book about BPD....I am not sure, but I do get quite upset...just a thought. Glad you found your way here Chains

[Marie67]

Hi, and welcome. Everyone is different. You might never have cut before because you didn't know about it, but that doesn't make it not a symptom. Did that make sense? It's also not something that can either confirm or refute BPD, it's just part of the picture if it's there. It's interesting how many of us aren't diagnosed. But as was mentioned in another thread, it does get better with age -- at least that was the consensus in the thread. I know it did for me, and I think it's pretty funny that this horrible, supposedly incurable illness gets better with plain old time, even if it is still possible to be triggered. And yet it seems like shrinks don't know that. That one piece of information could be all someone needs to hang on: it will get better. It really will.