[iliketherain]

Okay, so recently I've been thinking I have BPD.
I've got some pretty out there reasons for diagnosing myself too.

1) Childhood sexual abuse by my father
2) Promiscuity
3) Habitually Lying to people: I'm continuing to date my ex, date a new guy, and have slept with 3 other guys since my new relationship started, basically because I couldn't say no.
4) Crying a lot
5) Feeling removed
6) Formerly bulimic, and I still have huge issues with my self esteem. I would still puke if I hadn't messed up my esophagus from it.
7) Fear of being alone
8) I can't function
9)Suicidal thoughts

I don't understand. I'd like to think that I'm a good person, yet I do all of these ****** things and NO ONE knows. I constantly lie to cover up everything and at times I also find myself lying about minor details that do not matter.

I think I am a psychopath.

Hang in there....use this forum and others to know that you're not alone. I have found that that in itself helps. Get help when you can. Know that people care....

[cboxpalace]

Your feelings aren't out there! You're NOT a psychopath! I think you need to see a doctor to be properly diagnosed, because what you describe doesn't scream bpd. You list many common traits that overlap with other mental illnesses. There's almost no mention of any very common bpd features.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

You're okay.

glad you talked to us.

You're okay.

I have known people with problems who don't even admit they have them or come to a place for help like PC. So, I am glad you came and talked.

B.

[Shellsh0cked]

Originally Posted by iliketherain

Okay, so recently I've been thinking I have BPD.
I've got some pretty out there reasons for diagnosing myself too.

1) Childhood sexual abuse by my father
2) Promiscuity
3) Habitually Lying to people: I'm continuing to date my ex, date a new guy, and have slept with 3 other guys since my new relationship started, basically because I couldn't say no.
4) Crying a lot
5) Feeling removed
6) Formerly bulimic, and I still have huge issues with my self esteem. I would still puke if I hadn't messed up my esophagus from it.
7) Fear of being alone
8) I can't function
9)Suicidal thoughts

I don't understand. I'd like to think that I'm a good person, yet I do all of these ****** things and NO ONE knows. I constantly lie to cover up everything and at times I also find myself lying about minor details that do not matter.

I think I am a psychopath.

You are not a psychopath. How do I know? I just got out of a relationship with a girl I suspect is BPD. She isn't a psychopath either. The difference here is that you at least can see that maybe you have the symptoms and "might" be BPD. She does not and scoffs at the idea that she has any other problem other than a panic disorder. She is never going to be any better as a result.

Therapy helps. A lot. Although I am not BPD, I do have self esteem avoidant, and some moderate depression. I've been going to therapy for almost 6 months, and it has made all the difference in the world to me.

All is not lost. Promise. Hang in there.