I hate this

I've been recently prescribed quetiapine, 25mgs. The doc thinks it's a good choice of drug for me as I sleep very badly and have poor appetite. He does think it will even out my mood swings. It's certainly helped in all those areas but mainly cos I'm so out my face on them that I cease functioning as I normally do. I take the tablet at night around 7 or 8pm and still feel wasted until 6pm the following evening.
I can't do this, my life is wasting away cos all I do is lay on the settee all day and do nothing. I'm an active person so this is frustrating. I tried halving the dose, took half last night and half this morning, still the same effect but added to it I had a night with very poor sleep. Woke with all the feelings back once again, self hatred, anger, frustration, self pity, suicidal desires and hurt and I feel emotionally all over the place again.
So what to do, I don't know. I just feel there's no way out this for me right now and that makes me feel like this is a torture on top of an already dibilitating situation.
I feel like a prisoner, can't go out cos i'm too wobbly, walk around like I'm drunk. Can't drive cos I'm certainly not safe to. Can't even do anything in the house cos I don't feel safe and don't have the mental alertness to undertake anything. I'm just a waste, a prisoner to my own illness. I hate this, I feel punished. I can't do this much longer but I know if I stop taking the tablets I will feel suicidal again and I don't want to put my family through what I have done over the last week.
If this is life from here on in, what quality does it have???

There may be another medication to help in the same way, that doesn't have that 'hangover' effect. Or, a lower dose of this medication might be better in your case. Or, there may be an adjustment period and this is a side effect that will get better.

Please talk to your doctor and tell him/her what is happening. They need to know what happens when a new medication is being used. They can help

Hi Echoes, thank you for your reply. I've been in touch with the crisis team today and they have emailed the doc and are waiting for a reply from him. They are ringing me tomorrow to let me know what he says.
I'm not sure I can take another day being in this state so not sure about taking the medication tonight.
Really don't know what the best course of action is. If the doc doesn't reply today then I'm stuck with this all over the weekend and thats not an option for me right now. Without meds though I worry I'll become irrational again and will not be safe. Wish there was a lower dose available but the 25 mgs is the lowest. I guess I may as well stop fighting this and comply.