Do others here have problems with memories and flashbacks, particularily on anniversaries and such? I'm pretty sure I know the answer, but hearing it, knowing that you're not alone is always nice....

Today...New Year's Eve...marks one year since I officially started loosing myself to the BPD, something that I had had for forever but had been able to cope for so long... Not always perfect, but could always manage. Took on a friendship I couldn't handle, something that turned out to be totally toxic to me. I don't know how my mind with react to today, to days coming up as I remember back, but I'll be extremely honest...I'm so very scared. I don't want to lose myself anymore. Enough is enough. I need to see some light, see some hope, envision a bright future. I've been working on it...sometimes I succeed and other times I stumble and fall and once again find my face in the dirt, but I'm trying...

May the New Year bring a little bit of hope and peace to all of us....and thank you for your support. I'm going to continue needing it in the days to come...

[LadyShadow]

I don't know what to say really. My bipolar meds kind of took away my imagination and ability to daydream and look back. But I do from time to time, especially today of all days. I wish you nothing but peace in trying to deal with this right now.

I know we are all here for you and support you and help you get through this.