[mraas72]

Since I told people that I have BP Disorder I feel they are trying to control my life. It makes me feel sick to my stomach and it's all day long. I feel like I need to get away from them but I can't because I would miss them but they all seem to be very judgmental about my emotions and try to quite me down in a very rude way. I'll just be talking and my boyfriend covers his ears and my daughter acts like she is always right. I always get cut off when I am saying something truthful. I feel like I am talking normal and I have to raise my ton over 2-3 people budding into my conversation. I don't always think I am in the wrong sometimes I think they just can't stand me to talk the truth. ****ing *** holes!!

That's what I have to say tonight because I am very freakin emotional and I have nobody to talk to since everyone just hates to hear my voice.
Mad, sad, and really hateful right now.

[greyclouds]

((Hugs)) I'm sorry your feeling like this, and sorry there making you feel this way.

I have some advice but it's real childish, and it's the only way I can get people to listen to me. When things seem this way.

An that is day NOTHING. That's right nothing at all.

When you bf asks how you are just look. When your daughter shouts for her on way ignore her.

They will soon start wondering and feel the frustration you do when they do what they do it to you.

Once they have reached that point calmly explain.. Was that annoying for you? "Yeah" well that's how you make me feel every time I open my mouth.

So unless I start to be listened to fairly then this is how it will be!!

Things won't change over night, but they sure will remember how it feels.

BPD or not, no one likes to have there feelings or voice ignored. Unfortunately for us it's just hurts a great deal more.

((Hugs)) again hope it helps.

[greyclouds]

Sorry that would be Say nothing not day nothing!! Stupid smart phone!!!

Originally Posted by greyclouds

((Hugs)) I'm sorry your feeling like this, and sorry there making you feel this way.

I have some advice but it's real childish, and it's the only way I can get people to listen to me. When things seem this way.

An that is day NOTHING. That's right nothing at all.

When you bf asks how you are just look. When your daughter shouts for her on way ignore her.

They will soon start wondering and feel the frustration you do when they do what they do it to you.

Once they have reached that point calmly explain.. Was that annoying for you? "Yeah" well that's how you make me feel every time I open my mouth.

So unless I start to be listened to fairly then this is how it will be!!

Things won't change over night, but they sure will remember how it feels.

BPD or not, no one likes to have there feelings or voice ignored. Unfortunately for us it's just hurts a great deal more.

((Hugs)) again hope it helps.

that's actually a really helpful post- may try it myself!

[mraas72]

Originally Posted by greyclouds

Sorry that would be Say nothing not day nothing!! Stupid smart phone!!!

I like your advice and yeah most phones are stupid even though they are called smart. LOL

On your advice I have to say that isn't childish at all. When you said (if my bf asks how I am doing; I feel he is trying to push my buttons again because I am still upset at the time. I will and have just nodded with no response, but never waited to cool down to give a response so I am still angry! I don't know if this is clear how I am saying it. LOL

I just totally ignore most of my daughters remarks. Sometimes I respond but if I don't respond the way she wants it then she acts all ignorant and I just want to slap her so I start yelling. She is very disrespectful and when she gets together with her dad, (my BF) I feel like they are ganging up on me. Most of the time I walk away in anger (sometimes hurting myself) but I have yelled a lot and according to them to and a lot of other family members I just yell. I feel like I am talking excitedly. I just feel I can't trust even my own family sometimes.

I am just so scared it might be me and I just don't know to communicate. I am afraid I am going to end up alone most of the time. My BF says he wants to be with me and says he loves me. My daughter says I don't trust people that loveme. I am so freakin confused.

Thank you for your response, I will think about how I react more.