Aspergers and BPD...

The majority have an obsession of some kind. Some are short lived and change frequently, while others are longstanding. Some individuals don't get obsessions, at all. More information: Obsessions, repetitive behaviour and routines - | autism | Asperger syndrome |

Some people are good at socializing and enjoy it. Underneath that is a lot of effort, though.

Do you notice people who lead the conversation easier to talk with?

It is not a hopeless diagnosis. I understand your fear, though. Just remember the correct diagnosis, whatever it may be, can help resolve many problems. I know it did for me.

Whatever results you get from your assessment, take some time to think about them. Do some reading. Ask questions, especially if the diagnosis doesn't seem to "fit".

I don't know. All I can say is everybody I know with Asperger's including myself knew we were very different at a young age. I was four. My parents knew I was different when I was a year old.

I don't understand how your doctor's comments made you feel trivialized and invalidated. Can you explain?

P.S. Good luck on your neuropsych assessment.

As I am, I can't function at all, feel any pleasure, motivation, stability, feel like I'm not alive or real, don't know who I am, get horrible mood swings, the desire to kill or mutilate myself multiple times a month, and can't stand being in my skin but have no other choice. No matter what situation I'm in it's only a matter of time before something sets me off and I get flooded with horrible thoughts and emotions, sometimes for no apparent reason.

What I meant when I said trivialized--I don't even think he begins to appreciate the severity of any of this--even I like to deny anything is wrong but I know damn well this is a kind of prolonged invisible suffering most never struggle with.
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I'm also going to request more physical tests be ran, including an MRI since I'm a little disgusted at how a drug and thyroid check is the only thing they've ever done.

Depends on how I feel. I could talk a friend's ear off if I'm bored and stuck with them, or I could fall back into my turtle shell while around complete strangers or at a therapy/pdoc appointment.

My parents noticed I was very well behaved and very clean when I was really little, never making a mess or throwing a fit or wandering off at the store. I remember being just out of diapers and I used the bathroom by myself and I was actually kind of embarrassed by the fact my parents were proud of me. Their smiles made me uncomfortable. My first haircut was also pretty awful.