Iv plummeted

Straight back down again.. No warning.
All this pain is too much to bare. Why does this keep happening, and why am i not able to deal with it?

I hate it
I hate feeling this shallow and worthless. I want to feel empty, nothing!

I wish I had something to say that would make it better but I don't, nor am I very inspirational this morning. But I DO understand, I do "get it". You're not completely alone..... Sorry I can't offer more.

I understand as well, what you're going through..

I feel so alone.. I don't feel like i can talk or call anyone because i don't need to burden them with my problems.

I just need to my children to go to their dads and be on my own.
It's hard on them when I'm like this too.. I find it hard not to take it out on them and then I'm overtaken with guilt. It's a horrendous emotional roller coaster that so far just keeps going down.

But what are friends for? Although you may not read or believe in the bible, I believe this verse is encouraging and applies:

"Ecclesiastes 4:9-11
9 Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: 10 If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up! 11 Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone?"

If they are true friends, you'll never be a burden, a good friend will always want to listen, encourage and support you in your challenges. I know I would

*hugses*
~S4

They are true words s4, and that should be comforting, and your right i know i should be able to call them.
But 1, they just don't get it. I've not managed to tell many people about this illness because i don't trust them
2, i wouldn't know what to say, cos i don't really know why I'm like this myself.

I know I'll be ok and I'll come out the other side, its just knowing how to ride it out.

Thanks for your kind words tho ((hugs))

Well keep on posting here. This is a refuge for those of us that really don't have many (any?) RL friends that understand. I've struggled with trying to get people to understand me for decades. Here at least I know people know what I'm going through even when they dont' have answers it helps to be heard and acknowledged.

1. I am your friend.
2. I get do understand.
3. you have my trust.
4. You don't have to say anything. I know sometimes we hurt so much with out any real reason. And do you know what. It's okay to just cry.

Just let it go....

((Hugs)) I'm here whenever you need me.