[BeautifullyDeprived]

Lately people have been telling me that I'm not giving my all and that I easily feel satisfied. For example, I'm a straight A student. Extremely high grades but my instructors want more! More? I cried on my way to the train today because they have no apparent clue as to what goes on in my head, everyday I give 110% and they want more? As for the easily satisfied, if I have a 95 average in one course, they want higher. Isn't that enough for them!? When I was younger, in middle school I beat myself to death mentally. I took on extra credit projects, I took on essays, I took on so much that I did not have the time to sit down and say that this was not doing me good, in terms of my mental being. It crushed me and now I'm back to debating whether I should complete everybody's desires or I'll be the bad person versus being satisfied with what I can accomplish. It's driving me insane guys, please help? I have always felt like no one cares about you emotionally but when it comes to your accomplishments and success, they want to brag about how they helped.

[shortandcute]

I'm sorry that people are doing that to you. That's gotta be hard.

[looking4lite]

. people always seem to want more no matter what, they never seem to think about what it's really doing to someone. I was the same way as you so high school when I realize that if giving my all was enough then I wasn't going to do anything. they push and push and push until there's nothing left to give them.

[loudpipes]

They obviously see that you have a lot of potential in you. And unfortunately they think they are helping you. When in actuality their pushing you over the edge. I think that you should talk to them and let them know that you are giving it all. You don't need to tell them about your mood disorder. Just be honest and let each instructor know that you are giving them your best. Then explain that when every instructor wants more, it is putting undue stress on you.

[Ultra Darkness]

I would compare it to horse racing. If you have a horse with a lot of potential, you have to train it carefully. Too much too soon, and you could very well lose the horse.

oh i can relate to SO MUCH of this.

my entire life, it was perfection or nothing. straight A's from kindergarten onward, bawled every time i got a B. and then i got into high school and later college, and i realized perfection is impossible, and the stress of trying to deal with that realization and trying to still be the perfection my parents wanted, literally made my hair turn gray at my temples.

i ended up dropping out of college and trying to make a life for myself outside family and relationships where perfection is everything. i was so much happier. i was working almost every day, but i was enjoying myself and i was succeeding at what i wanted to do, not what everyone else wanted me to do.

[greentires4me]

I am not going to except you pull yourself through mud only if you want to. Maybe its the Tough Mudder...endurance race...

Pace yourself your only human not superhuman...do your best and truly be happy with what you do. after that its all goose eggs anyway you can't be laying them suckers.