Hey guys. I don't know if I'm allowed to post this but... I'm going to open up my own chat room tonight (Saturday 3/9) if anyone wants to join me. It'll be called Keena's Room. I feel like I've chatted with most of you on the forums and I don't really have much going on tonight so...yeah. If you're just hanging out here on a Saturday night, feel free to join me.

Are the chat rooms not working for anyone else or is it just my computer?

I don't know. I'm sitting all by myself in my little room.

Sometimes they don't work for me. They're weird sometimes.

I want to join the chat but they aren't working for some reason.

Yeah, I'm sorry.

I'm probably going to close it down. I've been sitting here for a half hour all by myself and I'm getting bored.

So...sorry for anyone who sees this and wanted to join. I got bored and kinda lonely. Poor planning on my part. I should have said something about it earlier in the day.

Okay.. I'm sorry.

Originally Posted by nevergoodenough

Okay.. I'm sorry.

Not your fault. Sometimes I can't get into chat either. For me I think it's because I use Google Chrome because when I've switched over to Firefox it's worked just fine.

My dear, you beat yourself up too much. Try not to do this so much. Even your screen name is beating yourself up. The more you do it, the more you're going to believe it. You're not helping yourself any by doing this.

Originally Posted by misskeena

My dear, you beat yourself up too much. Try not to do this so much. Even your screen name is beating yourself up. The more you do it, the more you're going to believe it. You're not helping yourself any by doing this.

Well, I'm so sorry that I feel this way. And I'm sorry my username is too honest. Maybe I just shouldn't even be here if I'm expected to hide how I feel or something.

Originally Posted by nevergoodenough

Well, I'm so sorry that I feel this way. And I'm sorry my username is too honest. Maybe I just shouldn't even be here if I'm expected to hide how I feel or something.

Oh. My. God. Dude. I was trying to be NICE TO YOU. Sometimes people want to be nice to you. You can't even recognize this??

Chill the eff out. Jeez.

Originally Posted by misskeena

Oh. My. God. Dude. I was trying to be NICE TO YOU. Sometimes people want to be nice to you. You can't even recognize this??

Chill the eff out. Jeez.

All I said was that I was sorry because your chat wasn't working and you start telling me to "stop beating myself up" and you're like invalidating my feelings and making me feel like I'm annoying. Oh and yes, telling me to chill the eff out is really going to make me chill out. The only thing it's doing is making me want to hurt myself. Thanks, really.

By the way, I'm not a "dude."

That is not my problem. I'm sorry you constantly feel badly but I've tried to help you, constantly, and you constantly push down everything I have to say to you. It's not my problem anymore. You have to be responsible for yourself at some point.

I'm out.

I have never pushed anything down that you've said to me... I've appreciated everything everyone's said to me here.

I have to be responsible for myself. Okay. I'm not asking anyone here to be responsible for me. That doesn't even make sense.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

I see misskeena trying to help and nevergoodenough feeling like his feelings are invalidated.

I don't think either one of them means anything bad.

Once I used a username in a chatroom (not here) and someone thought it looked negative and suggested I used somthing more positive. I see nevergoodenough being honest about things and that's reflected in a username. I often feel never good enough, too. But in this other chatroom, this person wanted me to share a more "positve" name and I too felt very sensitve to that; felt really embarrassed about being "negative". I have been told that all my life. My bpd feeler just reacted and I just felt so embarrassed.

I am not taking sides with anyone, but I do understand how this feels.

I also understand wanting to help and then feeling like it's pushed back. I have been there too.

I hope you two can understand where the other is coming from. I can identify with you both. It's also okay if you don't. I wish people would not fight on here. It makes me feel sad.

Carol

[BrokenNBeautiful]

Misskeena, I also appreciate you trying to open a chatroom. I almost did, too, tonight and I would have run into the same problem with the room. It's great that you are offering support here. Please don't leave.

Carol

To be honest I'm not very creative at all with usernames. >.> I don't know any way to describe myself so I just thought it was the most honest thing to use as my username.

Before anyone comments on this, nevergoodenough and I have chatted via PM and things are cool so...yeah. I apologize for flipping my lid; I was a little raw about something that had happened on here earlier in the night and just wasn't managing it well.

[TheRealFDeal]

I'm sorry your chat didn't work out. Chat kind of scares me. I tried it once, but it went so fast, and I couldn't keep up and people were crosschatting, so I left pretty quickly. I also felt sort of self-conscious, like people could see me standing there in a corner all alone. I didn't know anyone and everybody seemed to know each other. Maybe I'll try it again sometime.

Originally Posted by TheRealFDeal

I'm sorry your chat didn't work out. Chat kind of scares me. I tried it once, but it went so fast, and I couldn't keep up and people were crosschatting, so I left pretty quickly. I also felt sort of self-conscious, like people could see me standing there in a corner all alone. I didn't know anyone and everybody seemed to know each other. Maybe I'll try it again sometime.

Yeah, I felt that way at first too. But sometimes you join a chat where people actually greet you and ask how you are when you log on--that's usually a chat that I'll stay in. Otherwise, people are having their own thing and they're not really into welcoming others (which isn't always intentional). Which means they should have a private chat room, but that doesn't always happen, but whatever. Anyway, that's why I wanted to do my own room, so that I could kind of feel more in control, I guess? I don't know. That's a bad way to put it. Maybe you know what I mean. Anyway...

I opened up a chat room again tonight if you guys want to join. I don't know how long I'll be on, but it's Keena's Room and it's not password protected.

[Ultra Darkness]

Gah. Stupid 3DS inability to get into chat. (fumes for a moment, then brightens) Hey, nevergoodenough, are you saying you're female?

[greentires4me]

I will open one later I think I might call it BPD lounge...

My computer's finally letting me in the chat rooms again.

Boo, I'm at work on my phone! Naughty me. Maybe Ill see if you're all still around when I get home later. Ugh, I don't have the emotional energy for work today; glad I have a super-easy assignment and can't wait to get home! I want to put my feet up and eat some snacks. How's that for self-soothing?

[greentires4me]

going to be opening one this afternoon PST time called the same as last time...BPD Lounge

Originally Posted by greentires4me

going to be opening one this afternoon PST time called the same as last time...BPD Lounge

I'll be there.